"This you see is what I am
no more no less
A piece of existance
a fistful of humanity
a handful of laughter
a mouthful of dreams
A quote of insanity
with all my heart"
When I saw him, in such a deplorable state...when I heard him call my name..I knew I had failed, like I always do; like I always fail everyone I care for...all of them...but you most importantly; you, the person that has given me everything I now posses...you, to whom I owe more than what a human can obtain...
You, to whom I have given nothing, but taken everything
To you I promised the sky...while you gave me the stars
To you I offered my life...yet you gave yours without question
To ask for forgiveness is to lie, because I don't wish it...I do not wish for something I do not deserve.
There are many ways to take a person's life...the most horrible one, is to let them wait...there's no pain, suffering...anguish...greater than waititng...
A decision becomes a mistake once the consequences take shape.
"And you can have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt"
I saw my grandfather yesterday...hadn't seen him in various weeks...he recognized me...not much time left for him...
I realized something yesterday, heh...I'm letting down everyone that cares for me; my mother, my father...Linii...her most of all...
Heh...I really do love you Linii, even if doesn't seem like it; god I'm such an...idiot...all the time I've wondered "why do stupid guys let their girlsfriends suffer in vain...don't they know chances are that's the best thing that will ever happen to them?"...heh, even when I'm the stupid idiot, I don't know the answer...
...I don't want to lose you...
...sure doesn't seem that way...
...but it's the truth...
Chasing invisible enemies when the greatest one lies inside...
Honestly...I don't give a crap about anything anyone says...don't offer me condolences, don't offer me understanding...don't offer me pity...
If you "feel" for me...don't...don't waste your time, really...if you "feel" for me don't follow my example...don't make the ones you love hurt in vain...
Your sentiments are better placed on someone that cares
If you do understand, don't comment...