I'm changing classes in college. The people in my class are rowdy and yucky. You can't forget that accurate phrase: Lay down with dogs, get up with fleas....
I should be studying... I want to make a good impression tomorrow in my new class but I have some good news to share with ya'll.

Well. I ended up going dancing on Friday night. And my friend's ( Read more... )

My friend had an interview today for a law firm reception job (aka my dream job for whilst I'm studying).

I apply for jobs the same way she does, hell even the same WEBSITE, every single day. Why don't they ever contact me, even to tell me I'm not good enough? Am I so bad that they don't even think I'm seriously applying?

How can they honestly pick ( Read more... )

I came up with the perfect reward and puishment today. I've been wondering what I can do to reward my next goal weight because I wont be thin enough to get another belly button piercing. And if I miss one, which MUST NOT happen, I needed a punishment bad enough to stop me from making the same mistake again but not self-destructive or something I'll ( Read more... )

I'm not going to publish my whole diary on here. Basically whilst hanging out in Italy I had a lot of fun but didn't stop binging... at all.

But things are different now. I have scales, I have deadlines and I have control.

I was 49.5kg when I weighed my self  less than a week ago. It was wonderful as I shall weigh

47kg by 1st August

But I just weighed ( Read more... )

I'm waiting for the plane to Paris. I am alone and tired and  just spent too much on ugly scarves and a tacky watch. I don't even know why I bought them.
My flight from Brisbane was long and sort of boring. I sat next to a guy wearing a Beatles shirt (which, strangely enough was the guy who my friends and I had noticed at the airport. I hoped I  ( Read more... )

I must look  at thinsporational pictures and think that's how I look ( Read more... )

Original Plan ( Read more... )

I haven't written in a while. Things are not good here.

I want to get out of this stupid town. I don't want to ever have to see thugs any more. I don't want to be recognised by people I don't recognise.

I want to change my name , the way I look and I want to disappear.

I want to move to the country. I am sick of eating so much I feel sick. I am ( Read more... )

You are such a part of me, that without you I might just disappear.

I just ruined the last day of my liquid fast.

I got home from college this afternoon and ate....
-  two bowls of low fat lemon yoghurt
-  peice of fruit bread
-   low fat orange and poppiseed muffin
-   banana
- bowl of spaghetti bolognaise

I know what I ate was low fat, but I just ate ( Read more... )

What I really need is a new job where I'm not surrounded by food.

Well I started liquid fasting yesterday. It's been good so far (really rainy and cold so great excuse for soup)
But I still don't know what I weigh. It will only be a matter of time before my mother buys scales and I will not be above 50kg then or else I swear I will fast for ten ( Read more... )