54 - My Death Will Have Your Eyes [Pt 5]

May 14, 2010 19:17

Title: My Death Will Have Your Eyes [Pt 5]
Characters: Russia/America.
Rating: PG-13
Summary: 1962 - The Cuban Missile Crisis draws to a close; Russia and America's relationship follows suit.

TCE is co-written by wizzard890 and pyrrhiccomedy.

They sat on the edge of Russia's bed, a good two feet apart. )

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iota_espionage May 15 2010, 14:31:11 UTC
This chapter actually sent me to bed in tears...

"I'm sorry I made you love me." His voice was young and thready. "I know you didn't want to."

That line... just... I can't even...

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pyrrhiccomedy May 15 2010, 18:17:15 UTC
/Soothe! D=

They'll be okay! They just need some time. Give them a little while to get their heads straightened out, and there will be maximum cuddles.

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ellenel13 May 15 2010, 17:27:25 UTC
I believe in you Russia! One day, you'll be able to tell him you love him without closing your eyes.

Nice moment of characterization when America almost changed his mind. he probably sees this as "giving up" and America hates giving up. he might lose interest, but giving up is not something he does.

Looking forward to what America and Russia do now that they've decided to go their separate ways for a while.

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pyrrhiccomedy May 15 2010, 18:16:27 UTC
Russia's come a long way, hasn't he? I mean...he has to close his eyes for now, but he can say it, and mean it, and knows he means it, and won't try to deny it to himself immediately afterwards. So far as honesty to himself goes, Russia's made it about a thousand miles from where he started off.

he probably sees this as "giving up" and America hates giving up.

He totally does. I think that's why he resisted this for so long. Giving up is never good! Giving up is bad by definition, as far as America's concerned! It goes completely against his nature for there to be something he wants, desperately, and not go after it.

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I cannot break down crying in public, that' just not cool, but.. pockygirl May 15 2010, 17:39:39 UTC
this hurt, seriously. like everyone else i know it's best for them to back off and figure things out, but... nooooooo, have good sexytimes and a mug of hot chocolate and be HAPPY, DAMMIT.

stupid boys.

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Re: I cannot break down crying in public, that' just not cool, but.. pyrrhiccomedy May 15 2010, 18:13:46 UTC
They'll make it back to the good times sooner or later! They always do! ♥ And they'll probably have an unprecedented level of love-cuddles, too.

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alatherna May 15 2010, 17:42:30 UTC
So, I'm probably doing it wrong but this made me - after initial hurt - actually a little bit... h-happy... or maybe, hm, relived is a better word. They are actually doing progress. No shouting, no threats, no punching the other and screaming 'I hate you'. They actually say the L-word, Russia says the L-word, and sure, it's bittersweet, but still. What they're doing is because they don't want to hurt the person they love so much a-and... I find it... really amazing. They're willing to go through this, which is undeniably really painful, to actually sort few things out with themselves so that the next time the opportunity arise they won't be killing each other again.

Wow, you guys. I think this is why I love TCE so damn much. You're writing about a relationship. Not just a pairing. Or it's just me and my fangirlism for this story is showing OTL

... and I'm waiting for USUK now. Yes, I think it will do America good, I mean, a relationship without missiles in the backyard. And you know, something that doesn't revolve around Russia, ' ( ... )

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pyrrhiccomedy May 15 2010, 18:11:44 UTC
Oh my God no, you totally get it, I love this comment a million times hearts hearts hearts ♥♥♥♥♥.

You're writing about a relationship. Not just a pairing.

This right here has always been, well, really our one and only goal with TCE. It started out almost as a--as a social experiment, you know? XD We were like, "What would happen if we rewound Russian/American history all the way to their first diplomatic contact, and just played it forward? How would their relationship develop?" We load the dice for them to get together and have sex, sure, I mean, We Ship It, but really we try to be as hands-off as we can, so long as the boys submit to some Themes and narrative structure along the way. We're interested in their relationship. Not in them having sex (though that's great) or their sturm und drang (although they're good at that!); we just want to see them have a relationship.

So, um...yeah. More hearts. ♥♥

I think it will do America good, I mean, a relationship without missiles in the backyard. And you know, something that doesn't ( ... )

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alatherna May 15 2010, 21:01:30 UTC
♥♥♥ /heartspam

Well, you know, for 54 chapters, only 4 with actual sex (oh, god, but WHAT sex =DDD) is not that much. And while it's hot and all... it's not what makes TCE, you know, THE Russia/America story for me. I think it's really neat that instead of writing "how to get those two guys in bed" you write about "how to make those two dysfunctional, stubborn males to act mature and have a relationship (without the "I have nuclear missiles in my backyard, what are you gonna do about it? =D" threats even if that cracks me up)". So yeah. You're doing an awesome job :> I think TCE takes a huge part in why I'm in this fandom anyway, I mean, I love the boys, but constant "Russia-rapes-America, cue The Cold War angst" is starting to get on my nerves. I have pairing-love breakdown lately and I'm ranting, I know OTL. I think I might be to old to believe that sexy times and "one tru wuv" are solution to everything (42 is, duh). So yeah, thank you for writing TCE, this sounds stupid but, thank you =D

He'll have tried the alternative, and it ( ... )

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pyrrhiccomedy May 16 2010, 08:51:08 UTC
I love the boys, but constant "Russia-rapes-America, cue The Cold War angst" is starting to get on my nerves. I have pairing-love breakdown lately and I'm ranting, I know OTL.Oh, dude, go ahead and rant. That drives us crazy, too. I mean, I wouldn't mind the rape'n'abuse schtick in the R/A fandom if it were just an occasional kink thing, but--there's this weird PERCEPTION that R/A is supposed to be violent and abusive. And like...WHY?? They never actually went to war (unless we count the Allied Intervention Effort, but we totally shouldn't, I mean, if even STALIN didn't see the AIE as a reason to hate on the Americans, the rest of us should probably let it go)! There's never been actual violence between Russia and America in all our history together! Lots of bad relations and passive-aggressive bitching, sure, but the fact is, from a historical standpoint, they've never laid a hand on each other ( ... )

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anasyrma May 15 2010, 18:38:16 UTC
I cried and I'm not gonna lie about it. B'aw, y'all are amazing.

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pyrrhiccomedy May 16 2010, 08:54:29 UTC
We're really glad you're enjoying it. =D

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