a really weird place, i dont know if i am dealing with it the right way, but i cannot say i have ever been in a place like this before. i dont think its a sad place anymore, just weird, i dont know how to act when i see you around, part of me wants to throw up from anxiety, part of me just wants things to be just like the good old days, and another ( Read more... )

what a f*ckin roller coaster of a week. all i know is that with all the toxins i have consumed i should be dead or broke, probably both. i am better now though, i mean yah i am better now. so just for my own interest sake this is what the week looked like ( Read more... )

can some one please tell me what to do!!!!!!

hmm, ok so life is pretty good right now. its funny how things from your past just seem to creep up on you, ask me about it, i will elaborate. its kinda creepy actually. i am at grad school awaiting my doom, i hope this class hold some kind of meaning, i hope the work load is not too rigorous. i just read that tomorrow kim ann is deejaying at happy ( Read more... )

ahh weekend, how i love thee. i just came to the realization that work is nearly done! this year has been kinda crazy. summary of this week, you dont really have to read this, sometimes when i am bored i like to go back and read my journal, its kinda interesting to see what i was thinking and doing 1 year/2 years a go. Email from advisor, you are ( Read more... )

i am beat. but i still need to finish my wonderful lesson on experimental probability, as well as, my unit plan for grad school, its dues tomorrow. i was not observed today, it was post poned till thursday, i actually dont know what was post poned till thursday because he said he had the paper work in his office? oh well. spencer gets back from ( Read more... )

graduation? nope. well august. i have a crazy observation tomorrow, for which i am a little nervous, i should do fine, but i just hate the pressure associated with such things. i dont really know what to say from here, i dont wanna jinx anything, but something good is happening or starting (for once)...

ok i am gonna stop now.

population: me.

so now instead of having take one extra independent 3 credit class, with associated workload to graduate and become certified, i need to actually take THREE, two of which i need to pay for - SOB, no seriously sob.... like kinda sux right now.

i sometimes wonder who really reads this wonderful piece of narcissistic paranoia, i mean honestly one of the few reasons i write this is because i like the idea of some stranger some how becoming captivated by my dull existance, this is very dave eggers of me, except i think he takes this idea to the limit. i mean i wonder if people i have never ( Read more... )

i hate uncertainty, it creeps me out. i wish everything was clear cut. i wish all the answers were yes, and i wish that i could actually finish this paper so i can be done with grad school, well not actually done, see apparently i am 3 credits short and i need to take some emergency class in order to graduate with my cohort, and then there is this ( Read more... )