To conquer fear is the ultimate form of courage and strength.

I consider myself resilient, strong, and courageous....so, why can't I sum up the courage to do this one simple task? aljaskldaskldjklasdjkla.

I really feel bad for making her wait...but, gah, I'm just nervous.

Haha. I'm such a young, adolescent female.

Perhaps I will be a martyr.

Or, I will be forever remembered as someone who brings the world together. I seem to be doing so in the small populous of the High School system in Hampton Roads, that's for sure.

That's about the only thing I've done right in the past few months.

Other than eat 5 crispy chicken sandwiches in 10 minutes. ^_^.

Dang, I suck at basketball.

And I'm really fat.

And slow.

So, today, instead of studying for 2 tests, I played Xbox all day. So, yay, I get to stay up all night with the honors english kids. Except none of them are talking to me to help me procrastinate. Hehe. Oh well.

Yeah, I've lost it. Completely.

I've never felt so estranged before in my life. In a good way, too. Life is suprising.

...My life couldn't get any worse? My heart couldn't deal with any more crap?

.....Yeah, that was a fucking lie. Those billions of pieces have shattered. Shattered into trillions and trillions.

The worst part is? I'm still fucking alive.

Basketball is my life.

.....if only I weren't so terrible at it, just like many other things. Like being a good person.

.....earning honor band status wouldn't have been so bittersweet, had I not had one of the worst performances in my life. It would have been better had I not shown up. It also would have been better if my knee wasn't hurting so much, but, yeah that's my fault, too ( Read more... )

I remember a time when basketball was my life ( Read more... )

A very Merry Christmas, indeed.