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[the_last_don]

So I'm feeling really well today. lots of energy. Still holding on to much animosity towards someone. I won't let it go until I leave my job... I know that now. I hold her accountable. And unless she decides to make a move,,, I will probably grow to hate her. or at least hate the concept of her so close to having something that so many take for

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[the_last_don]

I'm not pissed off here.. I'm just venting .. because I don't understand.

anybody who has read this journal.. has heard it before.

[cherryberry135]

Ah, yeah, it's not that we don't care, we're just out looking for a good beer, a good lay, and it's off to the ol' sawmill. We don't need no stinkin' romance!! F that romance, cuddly, girl movie-watching sh*t!! F it!!! I just want some sex!! Gah!!!
(that was ME venting) haha. I'm not really like that... *sarcastic grin* Well, I really don't like cuddly-girly movies and stuff like that, either, but it's still a vent.

Or, ya know, whatever. Shmoke and a pancake?

[the_last_don]

uhhh ok..
All I want is sex to... but at least I'm willing to care about it.
ha.
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you crack me up... I'm like .. this makes no sense.. oh wait I get it... you venting.
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Yeah ... I was definetly venting. i get way to emotional about it.
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girl movie watching?
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have you seen constantine?
There is a Skeleton key coming out... looks pretty good.
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thanks for the comments... I miss'em.
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[cherryberry135]

I feel ya, tho. You just need a stiff drink.

[the_last_don]

A stiff drink.

how bout.. 6 of those bad boys.... yep... I was buzzed up .. a little.

When is your B-day?

I didn't miss it?

[starbrit513]

To feel that way about someone who will not reciprocate is a dangerous thing. depressing. Is it only I who sees it as such a huge waste..

I know what you mean, jean. but you cant do anything about who love (well unless its just an infatuation, but you seem smart enough to know the difference)

[the_last_don]

Ya know..I've thought that out ..obviously... and ............................I don't know.
I mean you find someone attractive... you respect them....you feel something when they are around...

I just think it's a waste because I know we could have a great time being together.. and that's is a great deal.

That's what life is about. .. to me anyhow.

the fact is.. she sparks it for me... but I do nothing for her.
It's just one thing that I've failed to grow up on. The only way is to remove myself.. and that is happening in two weeks.

It's really not healthy situation. ..

love ... infatuation.

I've dealt with this for years over this "Cathy". It has caused me great anguish... I mean really... soulfull pain.
I don't think infatuation is the word for that. but like I said I don't know

[the_last_don]

I do agree with you completely.. believe .. I wish I were not so.. I mean to have these feelings. it sucks..it depressing.. and it hampers every other aspect of my life.

Thanks for writing... I do read your entries all the time. You send stuff out there that is pretty candid... and I like reading it. You have some similiar struggles .. but different.. we're all human... being humans

thanx