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[the_lone_salmon]

I am so ****ing sick of this. I have been working my butt off... Going through rejection after rejection thinking that soon there will be a light at the end of the tunnel. And now... When I have reached my.. about 10th best option. I STILL CAN'T GET IT. What the hell is wrong with me? Am I DOOMED to be broke, lonely and unhappy for the rest of my

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[anonymous]

the process of rejection after rejection is all part of the performing life [it's on the job description...only they write it in tiny print so you don't realise it until you've already become adicted] BUT you have so much going for you & there is a spot waiting somewhere for you and all your talents. if you keep on boppin away to DO YOUR THING you'll reach the light at the end of the tunnel, just don't give up ~ cause YOU CAN do it :)

LOOOOVE kellie!

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[the_lone_salmon]

I appreciate the encouragement... But unfortunately it's not longer even about the performing. I already accepted the fact that it's gonna be like this with the performing and I'll just have to deal with that. But now I can't even get a regular job. Somehow after getting short-listed AND having the best reference a old boss can give you... They STILL didn't want me. And I'm just floored. It's like as soon as I start thinking I have the slightest chance at something... I just can't get it. Oh well. I'll have a few days in my woe is me phase and I guess I'll just have to get over it cuz there's not really anything else I CAN do. xoxox

[smicken]

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hon that's EXACTLY how i felt last year. i was unemployed for like.... well, ages. 6 months at least. and it got to the point where i would just sit in my room and cry, because honestly, i was so bored there was nothing else to do.

i don't really know what to tell you, except... if i can do it, you can do it. i got a job eventually. it's not great, but it's a job. and you'll get there eventually, but yes - it takes time. sometimes LOTS of time.

keep the faith! keep trying! laugh lots! and make sure you catch up with friends and still go out to get your mind off things. that's one thing i didn't do and it was 10 times worse.

chin up, sticky chicken.

xoxoxooxox

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[the_lone_salmon]

Thanks for understanding... Means a lot. So sick of the ways my parents are trying to "help" me to cope with it. Very different techniques, both just as hopeless as the other. So far my motto has been that if it's meant to be, it's meant to be... If this isn't right for me.. Then there's something even better around the corner. But how many corners are there gonna be? I'm losing count of how many times I've been telling myself this and my patience is waning. But I guess locking myself in my room isn't gonna help so I'm just gonna have to get over my self-pity and try again. Sigh. xox