life has been fun lately. Free from drugs, going to lots of shows hanging out with lots of friends, old and new. This summer might be a lot of fun i think. Coachella was a blast, had a great time seeing so many great bands. ummmm.....who wants to hang out!?

more whining.

here ya go.

3 friends that i can trust, and hang out with regularly. Erin, Alex, and Chris.

Chris is dating Erin now, and Alex changed his number and won't return my calls.

guess it's time to find some new friends.

Rx Bandits show was fun. Missed P.O.S. because Blake wasn't drunk enough. Couldn't get mad because he bought the tickets. Bunch of my homies were talking shit about me last night. Pretty glad i spent so much time cleaning blake's puke for him to talk shit about me. fuck you guys later

I haven't slept in 40 hours. I'm so confused I just wanna give up, but for some reason I can't. No matter how hard I try, I can't give up. I want a lot of things that I cannot have, and I have plenty of things I do not want. Someone talk to me, I have so much to say, and no one to listen. I have a lot to unload, and I need someone who won't judge ( Read more... )

oh and beth, in reference to the vaux show, and all the other times we were supposed to hang out, i'm sorry.

I'm a piece of shit.

tired

So for the last several months i have not been myself. I have been a person that myself would have despised in recent years, yet somehow i have slowly molded in the opposite direction. I have sinned against my family and friends, leaving everything in shambles, and the only thing i can come up with as a reason, is drug use. Constant substance ( Read more... )

i'm slipping into darkness and i just let it continue because i feel that there is no one who cares enough to tell me when i need help. i've become the person i always made fun of in high school. not the chad vanquarterback but the idiot that did idiot shit all the time. the damage is done and i procrastinate the rebuilding of friendships and

"just remember, now matter how bad it gets, there's always light at the end of the tunnel."

prove it. somebody.

I find myself often becoming angry at myself and others for the most trivial reasons lately. why is it that in a time of such holiday bliss, i can find no peace. I fear that I'm losing the only one left. I have but three friends that still bless my presence and that number dwindels yet. One of these friends is a brilliant person; she has the idea ( Read more... )