Dissipointed with myself.

[the_mind_bender]

I have been thinking about some things lately. Where I am and where I hoped to be. What I want to do. Why I am not farther toward my goals. Why my goals are not where I want to be. How things have messed up. How little I care about things that should be motivating. How many mistakes I have made in trying to do better. I feel like I am going

Comments

[dahlicious]

how have you wronged your ex-gf?

Fast-food shops are evil so I'm glad they don't call you back... this job is soul absorbing.

...Taylor Swift? :P I didn't know you liked her. I'm not a big fan but this song is actually good.

[the_mind_bender]

I wronged my x-girlfriend because I went too far with her physically and didn't listen as seriously as I should have when she had questions about if the relationship was going to work out (early on). I might not have slept with her, but I did most everything else with her short of that. I had learned that this was what girls wanted and part of me was desperate to do whatever I could to make her happy because I cared for her, even though I should have known better. As for the other thing, early on she had some questions about the relationship and I had mostly just talked her through them because I thought they were mostly borne out of her fear of commitment failure and unreasonable expecations for how the relationship was supposed to work. Mabie I was right in my original assessment of things, but part of me wonders if it wouldn't have been better if I could have seen the brewing problems back then rather than trying to keep going for as long as I did

[the_mind_bender]

Thanks, i may do that later today. For now, though, I have church.

It isn't so much that I wanted fast food, specifically, it is more that even fast food places won't give me a call-back. What could I have done to be such a bad potential employee that even the bottom of the barrel, in terms of jobs, doesn't even want to consider me? It is a bit disheartening.