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Anxieties
Last night I dreamed that I lost my job, Mr. Pugh broke up with me, and someone left the door open and I wasn't sure if the cats had gotten out. In the dream I was at my grandmother's house (she's dead, and this is not the first time recently that I've dreamed about her). I tried to get a job at a coffee shop but didn't feel like I was really ( Read more... ) -
Self-care fail
I've already worked 8.5 hours more this week than I'm supposed to. Despite this, I can't seem to feel like I've done enough ( Read more... ) -
Neck deep in Indigenaeity
Between writing this article on the Mi'kmaq relation to animals (which is mostly research at this point) and starting a catalyst grant on indigenous methods (which is currently just an outline of the argument framework) I am consuming a reading diet of 90% Indigenaeity. It's interesting, and I have to work not to wander off intriguing side paths. ( Read more... ) -
Thanksgiving
I'm taking today off as a holiday. I'm still out of sorts with head and chest congestion and I have enjoyed the mental recouperation as well as the physical.
I have potatoes for baking, carrots for (I think) steaming, a veggie golden roast (basically a fake ham) and the ingredients to make vegan pumpkin tarts. The recipe is one I've used a few ( Read more... ) -
Making the decisions
To over the next two weeks I need to make substantical progress toward bringing my Two-Spirited Roundtable project to a close. I've got podcasts to promote, one interview left to transcribe, data to analyze, and bills to pay. I've run out of money, which is one of the outcomes I hoped for since I didn't want CIHR taking anything back in November ( Read more... ) -
Recouperation
Today is Mr. Pugh's last day off and I'm taking the day to spend with him. I'm still depressed and fragile and would like to focus on something positive that's in no way related to work.
That said, I still need to get my laundry done. -
Feels like I'm caught in a time vortex
So it's somehow October. I haven't thought about Halloween at all (apart from eating tiny chocolate bars at an all-day conference). My sleep schedule usually has me exhausted by 9pm, so parties are tricky. My celebration this year may just consist of me watching all 4 Scream movies back to back. -
Someday I will look back on this and laugh
I used to think I had more energy when I was doing my MA. Back then, I worked 40 hours a week, put another 20-30 into the Dyke March, did school full time as well, and attended every social event. Where'd all that energy go, I used to wonder ( Read more... ) -
You had one job, dreamcatcher.
Last night I dreamed that I was in a building talking to a two-spirited colleague when I suddenly notice that the place has a lot of spiders. I'm concerned that I won't be able to leave without running into them. I mention the spiders to A., who tells me the one to worry about is the black widow, and I follow him to a room where he points out a ( Read more... ) -
The property, I covet it.
When I was home this past month my mom mentioned that a piece of property just up the road from where I grew up was for sale. It used to be a campground - tiny cottages and a main lodge. It's been over a decade since the camp was in operation, and all the buildings are toast. The were never built on a proper foundation and they're all condemned, ( Read more... )