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[the_music_of_me]

I'm having a mixed day. Like, I don't know if I should feel sad, happy, or depressed. There are so many things running through my head today. Like in my classes I did pretty good grade wise. Then French class rolled around and I found out that my perfect A in that class since freshman year has been brought down to an A- all because of my stupid

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[soaring_sabres]

We haven't "floated away" and found new friends. We've always had the same friends. However, you now have a bf. Just like what happened with Axel and i, i dont hang out with my friends as much cause Axel and i ARE best friends. I do hang out with my friends, but only if they invite me places. If not im out doing my own thing with my never leaving companion by my side. You will soon understand how i feel. You dont ONLY have Travis, you have all of us. We just dont know you want us cause your so busy with music, and Travis. Youre not alone, it only seems that way. Your a busy person.

[the_music_of_me]

It's not even that you hang out with Axel all the time. I know that he's everything for you and I understand that because I have Travis now. It's the other things that bother me. It's like now that I have a bf, you don't want to hang out with me anymore because he's "straight-edge" or whatever so you've found other people to be friends with, people that have "looser" morals and will do the things that you guys like to do. That's why I feel like we're growing apart, because it doesn't seem like you're making any effort to say close. Maybe I'm just jealous of how close you and Kaitlin have gotten, I dunno. It just seems like I'm the last person to find out about things and I don't want to be the only person who cares about us. I feel like an outsider, when before we were inseparable. I can't help feeling this way and all I can do is tell it to you. I can't change the way things seem to be moving. I don't want you to feel like I'm being selfish or anything it's just that it doesn't seem like you're having the same worries as me

[soaring_sabres]

Well instead of posting comments like this,..why dont you call me to talk about it. I've gotten close with kaitlin cause she isn't such a busy person. You are always a busy person. And my "new friends" are not bad people. And i dont care that travis is "straight-egde". I just dont want to feel like i have to be fake and watch what i do or say around him. He is cool and everything, but he needs to except your friends for the way they are. I might go out and stay out late and go to shows, but its not bad. I'll just talk to you about it at brickview tomorrow.

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[angelflute]

well...lauren....all i can say is that sometimes I feel like you push me away....i wanna hang around with you and I stick up for you a lot...but you shouldnt feel alone, because I do care about you....I really honestly do.