It's Complicated... [09/??]
Title: It's Complicated...
Authors:Pati the_popup_book and Hilly hikaruikiru
Pair:Ryan/Josh; Ryan/Brendon; Josh/Hayley
POV:1st person; Ryan forever.
Summary: Ryan has a drunk one night stand which results into a big mess.
Disclaimer:The events depicted in this work are fictitious. Any similarity to any person living or dead is merely coincidental.
Author's Note:oh wow! This contains Mpreg. All men can have babies. Thank you very much my_life_myway33 for giving me motivation.
Previous Chapters
When I wake up, I'm in the hospital. Why do I keep waking up here? I press the nurse button. I move my hand to touch around feeling that I have a brace on my neck and my head is bandaged slightly. The nurse comes in and I tell her to get me my doctor. She doesn't listen right away. She checks my vitals and I tell her to take the brace off. At least she listens there. She leaves and my doctor comes in.
"You were wrapped around a pole. Did you get the therapist I recommended?"
"Yeah."
"What happened then?"
"I dunno. I blanked out. I was going through so much."
"Well, continue the sessions. Are you ready for release?"
I just nod and hurry through release. I go to Josh's room and see him watching the tv. He looks at me paniced slightly.
"What happened to your head?"
"I hit a pole. How are you doing?" I ask going up to him.
He grabs my hand and I can't help but fall into his embrace. I start to cry uncontrollably. I rest my head in his lap as he strokes his fingers through my hair. He leans down over me.
"What happened?" he whispers in my ear.
I sit up and look at him. He wipes my tears. "I wasn't happy and neither was he. He went to Jack again and I don't know what to do."
He pulls me into a hug and all of my feelings rush back to my mind. I cry again on his shoulder and grip onto him like he's the only person I got. I pull away when the nurse comes in with our baby. I compose quickly and Josh holds his arms out for Owen. The nurse leaves us. I coo at Owen and he smiles at me. Josh smiles as well. I begin to realize who is a lot more important in my life. I lean in and kiss Josh. He pulls away and looks at me awkwardly.
"I'm not a rebound for you. Don't even try."
"I wasn't...no...I have to try. You're the only person I feel at peace with. Every thought I have of Brendon always messes with my feelings. My heart will be yours."
"Well...I guess I'll try to be with you. I'll test you for a month."
I smile and kiss his forehead. "You won't regret it."
"Well, how 'bout you get your family out of here for a start?"
The door opens and Spencer enters with Jon. "Ryan! You're alright. We came as soon as we heard about the accident."
"I'm fine. Everything will be better and I will be happy."
Jon steps up. "Hey...do you think that maybe you need a vacation from Brendon again?"
"I'm going to avoid him like the plague. All he want to do is hurt me in the worst ways possible. I can't even get myself under control when I get into these 'moods'."
"You need to stay near though. The babies-"
"I know. They're due in a month and a half. I'm going to be there and I will be first to hold my child."
I ask Jon and Spencer to head to the store to get a new car seat for Owen. I'm confident in Spencer to pick something nice since he knows me well. He comes back and I get a release for Josh. We go through the process and I wheel chair Josh out of the hospital to the car in front. I get Owen and buckle him in into his car seat in which Spencer mentions that that is my gift. I then help Josh up and put him in the car in the back with me.
"Do you want to go home?"
"No, but all of my things are there and we still have the baby shower."
"That car seat-" Spencer starts.
"I know..I know. The only gift. Stingy."
"No, not that. It's from the both of us. Jon sucks at gifts. You know that."
We get home and I find myself not wanting to go in. Spencer convinces me and I rush inside to the basement before I see Brendon. A few minutes later, Josh is down here as well with Owen. He lies Owen down in his basinet and comes over to me. He kisses me and smiles sitting down next to me.
"You do know that I'm not used to this whole idea of being gay. I still like women and I barely remember that night so I have some getting used to knowing that you have a...ya know..."
"A dick. It's called a dick."
"Shh...I don't want the baby to have that as his first word."
"Listen Josh. I know you're not entirely comfortable with me. I'm not even comfortable with me. I've always thought I was secure but therapy has made me realize I'm the most insecure person ever."
Josh just nods.
"I want to take this as slow as you want. I'm not going to pressure you into anything."
"Okay."
Jon comes down. "The guests are here bearing gifts."
I tell Josh to go ahead. I wanted some time with my little Owen. I watch him sleep. He's only 2 days old. He starts to move and he wakes up. He starts to wail and I pick him up immediately. I try to calm him. He seems to be trying to find something to latch his mouth onto something. I head upstairs and find a pasey in the freezer. I see everyone exchanging gifts in the living room. Josh sees me standing and motions me close. I sit down next to him. Owen pushes the pasey out enjoying the attention he was receiving from everyone.
Pete smiles. "Baby Owen looks a lot like Ryan."
"I know. He's got his nose and eye shape."
"Super cute like his daddy."
"He's got his mama's mouth."
"He loves attention as well."
I hand Owen to Will. He seemed like a natural mom.
"Let me hold him. I need to practice," Brendon says.
Will gives Owen to Brendon with much hesitance. I eagle eye him watching his every movement with my child. I didn't want him touching Owen. Josh stands up and takes Owen from Brendon. Josh gives him a piercing glare and the tension grows in the room. Josh looks at me and smiles. He leans over to me ear.
"I could tell you didn't want him holding Owen," he whispers.
I smile. "Thank you," I whisper back.
The gift opening ends and everyone goes the the dining room and kitchen for food. Will pulls Josh to the kitchen. I'm about to follow, but I get intercepted by Brendon. He pulls me to the hall for privacy.
"What is your problem? All of a sudden I can't hold Owen because you hold a grudge against me. I thought you would be happy that I was being truthful."
"Let me guess, you were faking it last night as well. Thank you for hurting me and once Milia is in this world, I don't want to see-"
Brendon starts to cry. He covers his face with his hands.
"I just want to be happy Ryan. I'm sorry if you don't like it, but it's best for us both."
I put my hand on his shoulder and eventually pull him into a hug.
"I know. I'm sorry for taking it so...hard. I'm going to be trying with Josh."
Brendon smiles and wipes at his tears. "That's great to hear."
I just nod. "Yeah..."
"I'm gonna go to the bathroom to compose."
I head to the kitchen and catch Will talking to Josh.
"I'm actually having second thoughts about children," Will tells Josh.
"Really?" I ask. "I'll go tell Gabe or Travis. Wait, who the fuck are you seeing now?"
"Language," Josh says.
"Wouldn't you like to know."
"I would," I say.
"Both. Didn't I already tell you that I've had sex with both, at the same time."
"TMI," Josh says walking away
Will grins as Travis and Gabe come up to us. "Hey there, daddy," Gabe says refering to me. "Mi amor," he says looking at Will.
"We've heard from a little birdie that you want to practice making babies and actually succeed," Travis says.
"I guess we'll have a lot of experimenting when we get home, right?" Gabe says. "Thanks for convincing him by having the first batch."
I nod and go to find Josh. He's talking to Hayley...wait, when did she get here? I go to stand next to Josh and she smiles and waves. She looked pretty today, then again, I might be hallucinating or something.
"Ryan," she says greeting me formally.
Next to her was Greta. She was here the day before. We chatted for awhile and then I head outside for some fresh air. I run into cigarette smoke coming from Mike Carden. Jack was with him.
"You're gonna die of cancer," Jack says.
"Who gives a shit. It's my life and I get to choose what I die from. What's up Ry?"
"Nothing right now. I'm sure by tonight though that I'm going to be driven to the asylum soon. You'll visit me, right?"
"Of course. I'll slip you crack and everything," Mike says going along. "I know how bad your addiction is since you never eat or sleep."
"I'm always fucking tweaked," I say laughing.
"It's not a laughing matter. Drugs are bad for you. Owen was just born for fuck's sake!"
"Don't dictate me. I don't tell you how to fuck Brendon," I say. He quiets as I give him a hard stare. I then smile showing that I was kidding. "I'm joking man."
"You two are fucked up. You're a homewrecker and you got your one-night stand knocked up," Mike says. "It's your life though." He puts his cig out and goes back inside.
"Josh and I are going to try," I tell Jack.
"That's good. I'm glad you're going to be happy."
"Me too. I haven't felt like that in a long time."
"Let's go back in and join the festivities."
Jack and I go back inside and I see Brendon holding Owen. He looked so happy. Josh was right next to him talking to him.
Everyone leaves and Josh and I go to put Owen to sleep. He gets the bottles ready and comes down to the basement. I rock Owen until he's asleep. After that I find myself getting magnetized by Josh I wanted to do everything and more with him and to him. I hug him from behind putting my hands all over his waist. He's skinny with some baby fat. I miss his pregnant belly, but I am a lot more attracted to skinny people. I kiss his neck and he turns his body around and kisses me.
"Let's go to sleep. No touching though. I don't want a rebound. Like I said, give it a month."
I don't say anything back. We both start to take our clothes off. We get into bed when we're in our boxers. I find myself wanting to wrap my arms around his body. He gets closer to me as if reading my mind and I put my arms around his waist. I fall asleep.
The entire night, we both get up to take care of the wailing. By morning, Owen sleeps soundlly. He'll be up again, but for now we both take the advantage to try sleep again. We get another good 2 hours in and I eventually get up for Owen. I pick him up with him clinging to me. I go upstairs and sit down with him on the couch. I wanted Josh to sleep.