Happy Holidays

[the_rotten1]

The holidays have not been happy for me, which is part of the reason I haven't written anything for awhile. I don't want to bring anyone down. I hope that no matter what winter holiday you celebrate (or even if you don't celebrate any) you've been able to have a good time

Comments

[missingkitsune]

right there with you on the family bullshit, buddy.
families suck. that's why i've chosen my friends as family.

sorry your's still isn't getting it though, you really don't deserve that.

[the_rotten1]

Yeah, I wish I could do the same. Unfortunately, I can't get away from my family right now.

[seshats_prodigy]

I'm sorry to hear that your family is being like that. **hugs** Their lack of respect for you and your wishes makes me sad. -_-;

I do hope that your kids at least had a good holiday, and that you had some fun with them?

As for doctors...ugh. They don't listen. I mean, you know your body, because you live with it 24/7, but some are so...I don't know if it's arrogance, or if it's that they think 'laypeople' don't know wtf they're talking about, and they just don't listen. So you get to fight with them for YEARS to try to get them to listen and do something (which, if they'd acted when you'd first gone to them, you'd be better now and well recovered.)

[the_rotten1]

It makes me annoyed. They just don't listen.

The kids had a blast though. They got all kinds of stuff from everywhere. They're still playing with it all.

[sunspot67]

I'm sorry to hear that the holidays were so rough. At least you are through them. Glad that the pain and bleeding stopped and that you are switching providers--it's worth the hunt to find a doctor who will listen to you. You're in my prayers.

[the_rotten1]

Thanks man, I appreciate it.

[helliongoddess]

I read your entry about your medical issues and that doctor - based on my daughter's experiences, I would be worried about any doctor that says, "we don't do that," when questioned about giving hormones and such... unless you really pick up on his/her having a willingness to learn and an interest in learning. My current GP had never treated trans people, but when I asked her if she'd be interested in treating the girls, she got very animated, and said absolutely, and if she ever ran up against anything she was unfamiliar with, she would research it, get help from other doctors, etc, but she wanted to do it, no question. OTOH, my daughter went to two different endocrinologists who gave her the "we don't do that" routine that were pretty disastrous - one had her in tears before she even got back to the exam room. One other question I had about all that, reading your symptoms (glad they are better, btw!) has any dr. ever mentioned the possibility that you might have endometriosis? Your symptoms sure sound like it. And having it would be

[the_rotten1]

I went to the ER and had an ultrasound, so you'd think they would've found something if there was anything serious going on. I was diagnosed with Dysfunctional Uterine Bleeding which is basically just a fancy way of saying, "Hey, you're bleeding more!" and they won't do anything but give you either pain relievers or progesterone. I took the pain relievers, but didn't end up having to use them.

A few family members say that if I change my name legally they'll use it, but I don't have that kind of money right now. Why is their respect for me contingent on me having to "prove" what I am? Shouldn't my word be more important to them than a legal document? It's just insulting. And the worst part is, they think it's totally okay to treat me like this. I'm the one who shouldn't get upset.

I really hope something good happens next year, because I don't know how much more of this I can stand.

[helliongoddess]

I don't think endo is diagnosable from ultrasound, and if I remember correctly, hormonal stuff is what triggers it, so progesterone might make it worse, if that actually was what you have. If it happens again, you might want to look into it, research it online and see what you think, and talk to your doctors about it

[the_rotten1]

I looked it up online and transvaginal ultrasound was listed as one of the tests that doctors can use to diagnose it. I had one, and they didn't find anything. In any case, endo sounds like it starts when you first get your period and the problems I'm having now are recent. There are a lot of risk factors and symptoms that I don't have.

I'm living with my mother. I wish I could move out. I don't have anywhere else to go right now. I applied for low-income apartments a few years ago, so hopefully I'll get to the end of their waiting list soon.

Anyway, I know things will get better eventually. I'm taking what steps I can. I'm just sick of being stuck with someone who disrespects me, and unfortunately, there's no easy way out.

[andmydog]

A doctor at a trans-friendly clinic up here suggested that you look into LAGLC for help with your bullshit medical treatment, therapy, and maybe even resources to help you move the fuck out of there.

[the_rotten1]

Yeah, I've been planning to go down there. It's just a matter of getting a ride and someone to watch the kids. Unfotunately, that's not going to be easy. I don't have many friends out here and my family is completely unwilling to help.