there is that bright optimism that becomes a great, raw wound-red in The Body,
I've been thinking a lot lately about that episode and how important, how wrenching Joyce's death is to Buffy and then I read this - HOW do you do it? You understand Buffy and the series so, so thoroughly and you write about it so beautifully, that even a little "one-off" post like this one has hidden poetry in it.
Basically, I heart you so hard it hurts in a good way.
For some reason I had no idea you're so young! (You look young to me anyway. I think because your Buffy/Spike metas have a "wise beyond your years" quality. (Is it ok if I also say that you are very, VERY pretty? Which, I would think you already know. And, I love that pale blue top on you in the first photo - very much S4, I think?)
Thank you for your lovely comment! One of the reasons I love Season 5 so much is the transformation that both Buffy and Spike undergo - in many ways they're both different people at the end than they are at the beginning. And Joyce's death is so pivotal (although I feel cold-hearted reducing it to that) - the point of no return for Buffy. It's only this time round I've noticed how much Buffy's clothes have to say - and that red top is the warning sign, the stop signal, the moment that everything comes to a standstill.
Hee! I am older than I look (most of the time) and I do not lie when I say that my kindly bathroom mirror hides a multitude of sins. :) But thank you, anyway! You've reminded me that one Buffy top I loved and looked for, but never could find, is that pale blue top she wears in Harsh Light of Day - so pretty. My blue top I bought because it reminded me of Spike in Beneath You - at the time I remember it being a top of much fannish discussion, since it was just so unlike anything else Spike ever wears. I've had
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And Joyce's death is so pivotal (although I feel cold-hearted reducing it to that) - the point of no return for Buffy.Oh yes, very much so. S5 is interesting to me too in that her death comes right after Riley's departure, when Buffy's thinking shifts from "___ doesn't love me" or "I attract the wrong kind of man" to "I'm unlovable/I don't know how to love". People love Intervention in this part of fandom mostly because of Spike/Buffybot, but when Buffy tells Giles that she doesn't think Joyce knew she loved her is for me one of the most heartbreaking moments of the entire series. It startled me when I first watched it because everything in the show up until then told me the complete opposite, although Buffy has never been a reliable narrator in terms of her own heart. But this was the episode the writers first expressed their opinion via Buffy that she was at fault for the breakup. When in doubt, I believe the tale, not the teller. But those two events are not separate - the scars pile on top of one another. I understand why
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I like how #2 is the one you said that no one would get, and it is the only one that I guessed immediately. Except it made me go back to the episode and examine Buffy's outfit more closely, and it's......not.....a black hoodie? what that's what I thought it was all these years MY WHOLE LIFE IS A LIE. It's a long cardigan! I guess I never had the fashion vocabulary to describe it before and the hoodie association stuck....? How weird. Except it led me to victory in this game, so clearly it was worth it.
Re #1: for accuracy you totally need to shrink it so it's at least two sizes smaller. And then have an existential crisis.
But Season 4 Buffy, no-one else is doing it!Was anyone else crimping their hair? I've never known whether that was a Buffy-specific thing or a legitimate fashion trend. There is something jaunty about it that's fitting for the lighter mood of S4 but at the same time I hope that jauntiness never made it off the screen into actual life
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Spring has splendidly sprung! I have a whole patch of poppies in plastic pint glasses (to protect them from slugs) that grew from the seeds you sent me. They sat there politely all winter and have suddenly shot up like magic beanstalks.
I hereby award you the Virtual Hoodie of Shared Delusion for guessing #2. I went back to watch the episode and I can't even decide if the not-hoodie (coatigan?) has a hood. It has something hanging off the back that looks like it ought to be a hood but it could just be a strange collar. I know! See, now I have the existential crisis to go with #1 and everything. :)
Now you have intrigued me about the hair-crimping! The whole plot is probably told in hair kinks. The crimping of forced jauntiness versus the straight hair of serious focus.
It's lovely to hear from you, and seeing your comment pop up made me dance the dance of joy. I hope all is good with you xxx
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I've been thinking a lot lately about that episode and how important, how wrenching Joyce's death is to Buffy and then I read this - HOW do you do it? You understand Buffy and the series so, so thoroughly and you write about it so beautifully, that even a little "one-off" post like this one has hidden poetry in it.
Basically, I heart you so hard it hurts in a good way.
For some reason I had no idea you're so young! (You look young to me anyway. I think because your Buffy/Spike metas have a "wise beyond your years" quality. (Is it ok if I also say that you are very, VERY pretty? Which, I would think you already know. And, I love that pale blue top on you in the first photo - very much S4, I think?)
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Hee! I am older than I look (most of the time) and I do not lie when I say that my kindly bathroom mirror hides a multitude of sins. :) But thank you, anyway! You've reminded me that one Buffy top I loved and looked for, but never could find, is that pale blue top she wears in Harsh Light of Day - so pretty. My blue top I bought because it reminded me of Spike in Beneath You - at the time I remember it being a top of much fannish discussion, since it was just so unlike anything else Spike ever wears. I've had ( ... )
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Re #1: for accuracy you totally need to shrink it so it's at least two sizes smaller. And then have an existential crisis.
But Season 4 Buffy, no-one else is doing it!Was anyone else crimping their hair? I've never known whether that was a Buffy-specific thing or a legitimate fashion trend. There is something jaunty about it that's fitting for the lighter mood of S4 but at the same time I hope that jauntiness never made it off the screen into actual life ( ... )
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I hereby award you the Virtual Hoodie of Shared Delusion for guessing #2. I went back to watch the episode and I can't even decide if the not-hoodie (coatigan?) has a hood. It has something hanging off the back that looks like it ought to be a hood but it could just be a strange collar. I know! See, now I have the existential crisis to go with #1 and everything. :)
Now you have intrigued me about the hair-crimping! The whole plot is probably told in hair kinks. The crimping of forced jauntiness versus the straight hair of serious focus.
It's lovely to hear from you, and seeing your comment pop up made me dance the dance of joy. I hope all is good with you xxx
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