Now I realize that this is like the third post since I said I wasn't gonna post either ever again or for a while. I realize i am a whiny bitch. Regardless of what anyone says, I feel like I will never amount to anything. I feel inferior, inadequate and worthless...all the time. No matter what I try to do, I fail. I tried living on my own and ( Read more... )

I know most people read my Livejournal or they just skim through it. That’s fine. I really don’t care. I am writing this for me, not anyone else. And yes, it’s emo and I’m all depressed, boo-fucking-hoo. I’ll make the emo joke before anyone else does ( Read more... )

Some people don't understand the definition of depression or what it feels like. Some people will never understand the abysmal pits of darkness one can plunge into where the only escape that seems possible is rushing into a decision you won't live to regret. I am not trying to sound all emo and shit, but it's true. Some people say they listen, ( Read more... )

Looks like it has been a fun run, but all things must come to an end, whether it be for a while or permanently. I have enjoyed my time here on Livejournal, posting funny stuff or depressing stuff and the sympathy I received from people's comments. Unfortunately, I have been feeling so low lately, that I won't even post it on Livejournal. I am ( Read more... )

I saw V for Vendetta last night. Amazing...simply amazing. The movie isn't this action jam-packed fight fest. Instead, it opts to tell a tale that mirrors what a society can become. Homeland security, Big brother, etc...all those things can lead to complete and total government control. I loved the story. I loved the movie as a whole. I ( Read more... )

This was written Monday night, but I couldn't post it till now because our internet was down. I am a bit better now, but read on ( Read more... )

Why do we, as humans, always want what we can not have?

Why do we, as humans, always make promises we do not intend to keep?

The party was a success. Lots of people and lots of alcohol. More details to come. All I know is that I wasn't the last to fall asleep like I usually am. Instead, I was the one to never fall asleep. I stayed awake the WHOLE time and I saw ALL. I was slightly paralyzed during certain events towards the end of the partay and witnessed ( Read more... )

I went to the car dealer today to see what kind of deal i could get. I could get absolutely nothing worth my fucking time and breath. The sales guy was really cool, but the deal they were offering was shit because of my credit. Apparently, when AMEX called me a month or so ago and told me if I didn't pay up, my credit would go down. I told them ( Read more... )

I have been really happy lately. With a few exceptions, I have been doing really well. As I approach the quarter century mark in my life I can't help but be depressed. I even turned down two requests to go hang out tonight because I just feel like being alone. One of the invites was to a strip club and believe me when I tell you, that will not ( Read more... )