but who says that it's to get out and do something?
there are those select hundreds in this world designated, without any prior knowledge or consent, to be the underlings of the world. the ones placed there to lift the few amazing and extraordinary onto our shoulders.
not everyone's exitance is to exist. some people die after 100 some die before birth why? ...if we're going to philosophize this situation... ...then at least answer me that. noone knows as of yet. so I may be worth something but I could just as easily be worth shit.
we'll find out someday. i'll try not to dwell on it though.
I don't want precaution I want care that doesn't come in the form of subtle concern only disguised as sarcasim and coated to the brim with cynicism
I know you hate me being a drama...whatever... but I hate that you hardly show real concern for me and when you do, it's always shadowed by something less compelling.
you're honest and I love it. you're just too honest sometimes. and the fact that you're so honest and the lack of care in your comments
...make me feel like you honestly don't care.
...but at least you still write... some people don't even give me that gratification in life.
hey asshole, i was serious. i fully intended to send you one of those things...they're kinda sticky and squishy and cool. and the plus side to it is that you don't slip. i've slipped, and it sucks.
and fuck you that it wasn't real concern. i may not be overly sympathetic, but you know, sometimes it's just not in my nature to be that way...
I know it's not your nature, and that's what tends to concern me. I know you care...I just...like to fight for what I feel care is supposed to manifest as. you know as well as I do that I think showing a lot of emotion is intricate in life.
I know you care otherwise all those trips to parks at 2 a.m. all the random hangouts with no destination and all the time spent pouring out souls wouldn't have meant anything... ...but they do...and I am glad for you everyday.
I just feel like being honest with my reservations about you. would you rather I keep it in like I often do? I just wanted to bring my complaint to light. sorry it came off like it did...
if I had a couple of those I wouldn't be writing this in the first place but everyone is too far away and all on their own journey... ...and we're all much too absorbed in what is us to feel like there's anything else...
I try to show as much concern for friends as possible but people rarely return the grace I'm glad I have you...even if you are so very far away ...I used to think you didn't care that you loathed me in middle school that I was undeserving of you as a friend and so I tried to be something better ...and here I am...something better and we're friends... and you care... so I see that...
but lack of care from the mass of my friends has led me to lose grasp of what I once worked so hard for.
I'm rambling...and I have work to do. miss ya, David
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there are those select hundreds in this world designated, without any prior knowledge or consent, to be the underlings of the world. the ones placed there to lift the few amazing and extraordinary onto our shoulders.
not everyone's exitance is to exist.
some people die after 100
some die before birth
why?
...if we're going to philosophize this situation...
...then at least answer me that.
noone knows as of yet.
so I may be worth something
but I could just as easily be worth shit.
we'll find out someday.
i'll try not to dwell on it though.
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i'll mail you one of those huge pink sticky foot things to put in the shower so it's not slippery and you don't fall and die. k?
...i owe you mail anyway. =\
p.s. listen to dan.
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I want care
that doesn't come in the form of subtle concern
only disguised as sarcasim
and coated to the brim with cynicism
I know you hate me being a drama...whatever...
but I hate that you hardly show real concern for me
and when you do, it's always shadowed by something less compelling.
you're honest and I love it.
you're just too honest sometimes.
and the fact that you're so honest
and the lack of care in your comments
...make me feel like you honestly don't care.
...but at least you still write...
some people don't even give me that gratification in life.
-David
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i was serious. i fully intended to send you one of those things...they're kinda sticky and squishy and cool. and the plus side to it is that you don't slip. i've slipped, and it sucks.
and fuck you that it wasn't real concern. i may not be overly sympathetic, but you know, sometimes it's just not in my nature to be that way...
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I know you care
otherwise all those trips to parks at 2 a.m.
all the random hangouts with no destination
and all the time spent pouring out souls
wouldn't have meant anything...
...but they do...and I am glad for you everyday.
I just feel like being honest with my reservations about you. would you rather I keep it in like I often do? I just wanted to bring my complaint to light. sorry it came off like it did...
-david
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I wouldn't be writing this in the first place
but everyone is too far away
and all on their own journey...
...and we're all much too absorbed in what is us
to feel like there's anything else...
I try to show as much concern for friends as possible
but people rarely return the grace
I'm glad I have you...even if you are
so very far away
...I used to think you didn't care
that you loathed me in middle school
that I was undeserving of you as a friend
and so I tried to be something better
...and here I am...something better
and we're friends...
and you care...
so I see that...
but lack of care from the mass of my friends
has led me to lose grasp of what I once worked so hard for.
I'm rambling...and I have work to do.
miss ya,
David
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