Bullet.

Written by me on August 25th at 12:35am

Bullet through the head
Ripping, breaking, shattering
Destroying it all
Making all of it go away
With a bullet through my head
All that hates me
Everything I hate
Goes away
It all fades away
The red and white
The grey all splatters
Its all over in an instant
And with one pull of a trigger
One flash of ( Read more... )

I swear to God if I had the ability to physicaly hurt myself I'd be in all sorts of physical anguish right now......

Instead I'll just bury this all down nice and deep for when I go crazy.

Now I'm off to pop my happyness pills and listen to N.I.N.............This frustration just wont....go...away.....I'm finding out exactly what its like to lose ( Read more... )

Oh am I ever in the mood to hurt someone right now.......ooooh me oh my.......I'd have a delightful time just blowing the shit out of something as well. Oh goodness me.

FUCKING CUNT BITCH WHORE DEATH BLOOD RABBIT CARCASS ROTTING DICK MONKEY............Ahem.

Lost on DVD fucking rocks. Season 2 transfered REALLY well onto DVD. The picture is AMAZING even on my shit tv thats 10 years old ( Read more... )

.....and people wonder why I'm so angry all the time....

I am weak. Even for a human being I am weak. Weak and frail of the mind beyond the normal definition of what is strong and what is weak. I am undeserving of anything I have been presented with as is possible. I no more deserve to find love in another person, fullfilment in my life, or just a general state of well being, than I do a second chance at ( Read more... )

If I died...how many people would really give a shit? 3 or 4, besides my family?....I'm not completely convinced that I believe anything in the Bible anymore....And with that, would be the only reason gone that has stopped me from ever doing it.

"I've not thought about suicide a lot because it's kind of dangerous in your own mind to think about it. But I make myself think about it once in a while to explore what it would be like, you know, what if I did? I don't want to do it, I have no plans to do it, but there's been times when I've seen that black fucking cloud, and I don't even want to ( Read more... )

 Ever want to just surround yourself with the most morbid disturbing shit because it actualy calms you down?

No? Just me?....

Um. Forget I said anything.

I have less than 8 days to make my summer memorable. This entire year was fucking pointless....I guess January to about the start of mayish wasn't bad. I did go see N.I.N. with Sierra, that was a good moment in the 'what the hell have you done this summer, cuz you know summer is when people are supposed to do all the big things ( Read more... )