i'm giving the words "coke hangover" a new meaning. also, "rockstar."

i have a bruise on my cheek, right under my left eye, from furtive heads butting in the dark, unaccustomed to so much space. I am coming back to livejournal just to keep a record of my days, so here's the shorthand, i'm just tired of forgetting ( Read more... )

when i'm doing things right, my entire life feels like small faces "itchycoo park," only turned up really really loud.

i'm 23, i should know better.

i could not be having a more "magnetic fields" day if i tried. cheese, microwaved vegan chocolate chip cookies, my dark dark room, the 5-7 days i'm giving myself before i start bleeding like lady gaga's vima performance. i never get stoned before work but i think i might tonight. boredom, restlessness, and an impenetrable (though traceable) ( Read more... )

pretty sure my mom reads my livejournal (and my friends' livejournals?) how very, very high school. not that it really matters much these days, but i'm going back to making these private, just a heads up.

my favorite kind of sexual attraction, it turns out, includes an element of discomfort and anxiety. it is easily identifiable as an unpleasant feeling but one that is integral to my draw to particular people. hm.

the cold makes everything feel dangerous. it gives the night a sense of urgency. my heart is an irregular drumbeat, hearing for the first time the lyrics of "hey ya" as painful and romantic. i am being really in touch with myself lately, and there's this sensation that is coursing through me in a warming, fulfilling way. it really feels like a new

so many things afoot in the life of jordan. good things, actually. i got a job! i wanted to be able to write this in big, scrolling capital letters. i wanted to make it the status of every social networking site, to call up my parents and old teachers and say, I AM MAKING SOMETHING OF MYSELF. i wanted to be able to quit starbucks. it's not that ( Read more... )

let me make this clear in another way:
if i didnt live with my parents i'd be getting laid right now.