yesterday was my first foray into filming sex and maybe it was successful, maybe it wasn't. i'm not sure yet- editing is a process of discovery. it was a really long day and afterwards, because renee helped me, i promsed i would go to metalbeard's party with her. it was entertaining, not in a bad way, in a fun way, just in a way that i enjoyed for ( Read more... )

took a weekend trip to davis with jen to see the production of oklahoma! emily was stage managing. we started sat morning at the EAP meeting to talk to kids going to budapest next year. it was so great to see topher! we took shots of palinka (classy stuff and bathtub variety) out of jen's trunk before doing breakfast at zachary's. needless to say, ( Read more... )

i look at your scrapbook and cry because i wish these were my memories.

p.s. i'm pretty sure i have swine flu.

UPDATE: i feel better after a shower and listening to "coffee" as loud as it will go.
ALSO: there are so many gay documentaries for me to watch on the netflix.

"you're not a whore, you're a libertine" is scrawled in your handwriting on my back. protecting me. (from what?) rather than continuously playing catch up, i think i'll start right from where i am. that's a good opening line, isn't it? you're not a whore, you're a libertine. maybe that's the first line of my movie. maybe it's just the first line of ( Read more... )

i broke the curse, but something inside me seems to have broken too. these were decisions i used to be comfortable with, what has changed? it's a change for the better, for sure, but right now i don't like the kind of girl that i apparently am.

...I laughed and said, Life is easy. What I meant was, Life is easy with you here, and when you leave, it will be hard again.

...i'll write about it later (no, i won't, let's not kid ourselves) but this is the slideshow from my spring break trip. some audio copyright infringement prevents me from getting it up on the youtube, but it's on facebook and now it's on here, some of the five best days of my life- enjoy.

i cannot disguise the fact that i'm nervous when we are together

just had my last 420....also milo was here for the weekend...so much so much so much. still dealing. i have a twitter now, but it's only for me to post relevant/cryptic song lyrics that correspond to my mood. ha.

i can do it all without drugs ;)

when i came downstairs today (at two in the afternoon) my roommates all remarked that i seemed rather glow-y. "did you get laid last night?" i didn't . this is a post-ratatat glow. a post- tequila, post-whatever, post-dance party, post- dark bathroom, post-one of those nights, post- falling asleep in my clothes and waking up in the sunshine glow. ( Read more... )