Why does everything have to be so god damned confusing. I've come to conclusion that friendships are like battlegrounds and relationships are like whole wars. The fighting amongst everyone, whether the conflict be internal or external, appears never ending. The one who I still think of for reassurance and solace in hard times only brings me ( Read more... )

That great big hole in my pitiful soul grows abit larger by every tick and tock of that slow moving clock ( Read more... )

I wish the mood selector on the bottom there could be set to multiple options.

Because mine would be set to bored, confused, depressed, distressed, indescribable, lazy, lethargic, tired, weird, working, and worried.

You were my world too, and I miss you also. I've been selfish, I've been wrong. Regardless of what the future holds, you have had more impact on my life in the last four years than any other person has, and overall it's all been for the better. I've become a colder, stronger individual in a sense. Should what happened back in December happen ( Read more... )

You all make me really happy when I'm with you

but

when is the last time I made one of you guys happy?

when is the last time i gave pleasure to one of you guys by just being with you?

I feel more and more like I'm just the goofy kid. The one everyone laughs at and just dismisses when he's not around. Like who cares? it's just fucking Austin.

listening to Through the Eyes of the Dead

playig psp

got some pretty good friends

an extraordinary girlfriend

life is good.

Images to follow. click the links for more. It was fantastical and beautasmic.

my masterpiece


michelle's masterpeice


(I would have put Sam's up here but that was not captured onto my phone =/)

GROUP PHOTO


Michelle and I are one scary couple.
Links to the rest ( Read more... )

I want

The Black Dahlia Murder's new album Nocturnal to come out NOW.

And being able to enjoy things again without feeling awful would be nice.

I can't even watch Jackass the Movie Number Two without the ending song nearly bringing me to tears.

I'm a wreck. I couldn't get out of bed to eat breakfast this morning and before I even got out of bed I teared up and almost started all out crying. I can't ever sleep right nowadays, my devotion to quitting smoking bobs on and off, I lose my cool easier than anyone I've ever known, and my mom sees it and wants me to go see a doctor. The only ( Read more... )

lately life has been pretty sweet (albeit abit boring).  It's been sweet mostly because of a certain person who's name is Michelle ( Read more... )