try this?


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a few seconds ago, i received another random message from ed that goes: "hi shana!" wow, how intellectual. i have learnt my lesson: ed may have an unnatural brain disorder or he has too much money to be wasted on random messages + calls or he is just plain stupid not to realize that when i start to ignore him completely, that signifies how much i ( Read more... )

i need to make this as clear as crystalized water: i can type in whatever i want in my goddamn public journal. i know there are a few outsiders who are seemingly fans of my weekly rantings + i seriously do not know what do they finds so interesting of my writings. i can write on whatever i indulge in- any levels of consumption in terms of booze or ( Read more... )

though whatever complications there had been in reference to last thurday's party, i have to say that i had been enjoying myself fully at zeph and adriana's birthday bash at the muddy banks of extreme park. i had been to two birthday celebrations previously- but i did not feel elated at attending either both this year alone. i was exhausted, ( Read more... )

( eid )

these casino ads are getting on my nerves. i am having a slight headache- my head is beating due to hydrogen peroxide overload. i received RM 80 from both of my grandmothers + an uncle [a big numerical amount to date for being the daughter of the most well-off sibling from the damak family. i do not usually get any cash during eid. the monotonous ( Read more... )

i have my traditional kedahan baju kurung wrapped up in plastic material. i want to wear it badly because it would be the last time i would wear such a garment, such a clothing in my own homeland. wearing baju kurung in michigan would differ greatly, i suppose. i remember walking around the streets of london in purple baju kurung as a child- the ( Read more... )

monday


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i bled continuously at a so-called mysterious apartment. justin has one of the most wonderful bathrooms ever- the one without a lock + how secured was i to be inside there while faisal was next door curling up in his birthday suit, full on weed perhaps. i am afraid of faisal these few days. he used to irritate my nerves but nowadays, he is plain ( Read more... )

january


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