i am once again fourteen. i hate everyone. i hate this place. i hate these people, who are irrevocably connected to this place. i am about to embark on a way too long trip with people i dislike. i am being threatened by assholes to get kicked out of the place i live, and i just can't be fucked to deal with this country and this continent any ( Read more... )

am wretched girly type. must kill self. ah, love.

sometimes it's amazing the things you can get away with. :)

i think i've finally lost the battle with my inner mercenary brat. ah, well.

they say that one of the signs of being an alcoholic is doing things when you're drunk that you might not otherwise do and regretting them (actually, that's two separate signs, the act, the regret). of course if we lived by the standards of those self tests we'd all be in AA. so the question this morning: do i regret it? of course i definitely ( Read more... )

oh, and by the way, that was some kind of vacation. what the hell do you do when you love someone but they're IN LOVE with someone else and it's driving you nuts? besides bitch and moan... and start thinking about dog behavior and marriage and beer and suchlike.... why am i insane?

is it weird that i fantasize about throwing bits of cheese at someone? i mean it's not that i think it's sexy... exactly....

i'm leaving i'm leaving i'm leaving! gods, that was good. good good good good good. mmmmmm. tired now. but good. my car's all packed, my shit's all settled, life is peachy, and our landlord is still a raging bitch. but that doesn't matter cuz i'm leaving leaving leaving! and the house is clean and the hummus stinks like garlic, and all is ( Read more... )

he gave me presents! yay! two presents in one day! yay! it's my birthday soon! yay! i'm going to canadia soon! yay! i'm so not packed... less yay... but i'm going to canada! yay! and mozz is coming with me, yes. our life that we planned out when we were 8 is finally falling into place. how strange. and wonderful. beer beer beer beer ( Read more... )

so this is all and it. my last full day here. i'm leavin fer good. *huge sigh of relief. got my car washed, got my oil changed, tomorrow morning i'll get my tires filled, and i'll be packed, and i'll kiss everyone goodbye, and then i'll be gone. you know why classic rock is great? because they've got so many songs about leaving. just leaving ( Read more... )

why does my sister try to convince herself she has west nile virus? and why has our landlord let herself onto our property without warning - while i'm naked in the fucking shower with a window open out into the yard no less? yes, you own it, but you rented it out, and now you don't get to just waltz around as you please. oh well. i'm leaving in ( Read more... )