A New Direction

[thebluemadhouse]

I was just got off the phone with my sister Emily. I talked to her about my "official" boyfriend. I think that I don't want any serious relationship right now. I don't feel much for him. My feelings can't be changed easily. I have tried to convince myself otherwise. I have tried to think that I will grow to like him and be in a relationship

Comments

[prophetessamy]

I think the really interesting question is why are you in a relationship that you seem to not want? What are you getting out of it?

My Heart's Not In It

[thebluemadhouse]

I think I got into the relationship, because I have a hard time saying no. I wanted to please the other person. I also thought if I enjoy his company as friend, then I could enjoy his company as a significant other. He has realized my heart wasn't in it and it's caused problems. I thought that with enough time my feelings would change, but they aren't. I don't feel much for him. I'm not getting anything out of it other than pleasant company when we're not having the dreaded discussion every other week of why I'm not "committed." I'd like to remain friends and hang out, because I enjoy his company; but that might be hard for him.