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So I haven't updated in a long time. Primarily because I had nothing but bad things to say and I didn't want to Super Size my already EmoCore journal, as interpreted by Rem. LOL. Since September I've remained unemployed without unemployment checks. I have very few prospects in the job market. I have beyond crappy credit. I have too much debt for someone who's only 22. I have only one college class completed so far. My lease for the apartment I'm not living in is up at the end of May. I've lost a best friend. I have no money. I didn't qualify for financial aid because of how much I made in 2008. I found out that current circumstances don't have any affect on receiving financial aid that everything is based off two years ago. That any program to help financially tries to find a time where you were pretty well off and then hold it against you in the present. That there is always someone more qualified than you for any job; even the simplest of jobs. That no matter how much you can love your family after not living with them for an extended period of time it makes it so much harder to live with them again even if its for a short period of time. That friendships get exponentially harder to maintain the older we become. That making new friends may not be as hard as I once thought. That even though right now I have no intention of finding a relationship that even if I did I have no idea on how to go about getting into one. So far I am just as smart as I thought I am. I am doing remarkably well in my current classes and am held in pretty high regard by my professors and fellow classmates. However, that's not really saying a lot as I am in classes below my skill level. I am currently registered with a pretty good temp agency and have been selected as the primary focus for all the account reps next week. For the first time in months I feel like there is a light at the end of the tunnel and that I stand a good chance at making it through to the other side. I am hoping once the lease is up that I can get a new place with Vanny. Other options would be to get a place with Jarad, Chris & Jenelle. I would not be opposed to either option. Through out my time of being unemployed I have definitely learned how to stretch a dollar and the value of what I once had. I have learned to live off less and that I was stupid for not saving when I easily could have. I have exercised humility and this experience has definitely humbled me. I understand that I am not as indispensable as I once thought and am easily replaced by someone more eager, appreciative and willing to work for less. All in all I'm hoping that I never have to go through this experience ever again. I'm quick to learn so I'm hoping this is the worst of it and that everything is relatively smooth sailing from here on out. That's it for now I guess. End.