I AM GOING TO DIE ALONE

the loneliness is incredibly intense. all that remains is an inner pain.
the ache lulls me to sleep. stops me from wanting anything else.
the simplest thing. I can't accomplish.

its destiny.

i am meant to roam alone.

Why do I still insist on going on dates ( Read more... )

I dont know if I hate the incompetent students more, or the terrible clients that come into the school. I think its the clients. They are fucking insane. Like literally crazy. I have never seen anything like this before in my life. I would sometimes rather be doing hair for the crazies on the DTES. These people make them look like the easiest ( Read more... )

How do I stop it from hurting? Why do I care so much ( Read more... )

It may sound twisted, but I have made a deal with myself, and I intend to keep it. Sometimes it takes my breath away. But I don't think I can live like this for much longer ( Read more... )

my one new years resolution is to not use being single and alone as a valid excuse for being sad.

gay men are shit, they are superficial useless human beings.

I refuse to feel like I am nothing because I have no one.

Well I saw BAPS with his boyfriend yesterday while I was on the bus. With his terrible peacoat, and sidebag, (Hello is it 2002? I think I saw a Dickies label) He was probably on his way to see him, cause well I don't think fags like that leave Yaletown ever. He hasn't called/texted since Sunday. I am really starting to despise Vancouver. I ( Read more... )

So in the end, it blew up in my face, just like I predicted. I knew deep down that is wasn't going to work. He was playing all these games, and I didn't know the rules. BAPS! is telling people my sexual preference? I never even slept with him! - here I was walking around all over town, thinking I got my happy ending. Like true love really does ( Read more... )

I'm interested, but it's not that black & white ( Read more... )

I always hear people say things about how as you get older things will change more and more. It will get to the point where we don't even flinch at those disappointments, you\ll figuratively dust yourself off and try again. With all that I have learned this year, I feel like I still know absolutely fuck all about myself, my life, and the path ( Read more... )