It's no wonder people reenter and then leave your life when you do things like, oh, say you want to see a movie with them and don't call them or return any method of contact attempted the day of, nor talk to them later...almost a month later. It's all the same, all the same as before. Things don't change. I forgave you for cheating on me; I haven't forgiven you for your apathy and lack of motivation to do anything, even to your benefit. Clearly enough people are in your life judging by this abbreviated Year in the Life of You, but it's like they don't matter. I don't think you're as fucked up as you think you are.
i just gave up with you, that last night we shared together was far to painful and contrived. i know sure i've done you wrong, so wrong, but those dark rays i felt eminating from you far more than i'd care to feel. try as we may have, we still could never find something to do to pacify the awkwardness between us. what's the point when your counterpoint cares not what is done or what is said? it's damn shame you never knew how much i actually cared. passion, a word so rarely used along with my name(at least in your eyes), was reserved for you. you have no idea how hurt i was about your passion comment. to feel the way i do about the things i do and to criticized nevertheless is what has lead to such "apathy." what's the point when no one will ever see through your eyes. see the things that glow, things that show, glitter in the dark, things that hold no fear, they just yearn to spread their spark. again i feel i must apologize, for the attempt made. maybe in some foreign time i won't be such a fool.
I see no effort was made to show or explain to me that you actually cared about something, let alone me, in a way that is relatively normal. No, it's just like you, to just drop it and never go back, to just give up [on me, so you said]. I don't even know what you were referring to regarding the "last night we shared together". You could have said something. Always, you could have said something. It's amazing what a little communication can do
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i don'r know anymore, perhaps you are right all along about me and the way i am towards you and everyone else. i don't feel cheated in any way, and i didn't not intend to sound that way. i believe what held me back from expressing myself further was fear. the same fear that seems to stop me from doing anything. and i really can't believe you to be completely clueless either, a smart girl like you? no.
what i refered to as our last night, we went to poncho's then pretty much stared at a blank tv for an hour and parted ways. not exactly my most fond memory, but what was ever going to change? and no i don't mean dating again or fucking or anything like that. just a change in the seemingly endless void between us, but again that is my fault for leaving nothing written on my chalkboard.
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what i refered to as our last night, we went to poncho's then pretty much stared at a blank tv for an hour and parted ways. not exactly my most fond memory, but what was ever going to change? and no i don't mean dating again or fucking or anything like that. just a change in the seemingly endless void between us, but again that is my fault for leaving nothing written on my chalkboard.
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That is very sad. I'm hoping you aren't serious. :/
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