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[thecommonswift]

Oh dear readers, I have been remiss in updating. I am in the midst of learning to use the dvorak keyboard layout, and I have just gotten to the point where typing anything longer than the average twitter post is no longer unbearably frustrating

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[thecommonswift]

I downloaded a touch typing instruction program that's helped a lot. I also have a game in which you type words as they fall down the screen but that feels awfully advanced. :)

In regards to depression, you are absolutely right. A big part of my problem was coming from an emotionally abusive family environment in which I was often told that I was lazy and selfish and too sensitive, and I internalized very early on that there was something wrong with me and that it wasn't safe to admit weakness. Even when I first sought therapy in college I was hamstrung by the idea that I had to suffer in order to prove myself worthy of good things and refused to take medication. It's wonderful to be at a point now where I can recognize my symptoms for what they are and not feel that having depression makes me less of a person.

School pretty much ate my decade as well.

[thecommonswift]

I started developing anxiety disorders pretty early ( I've had trichotillomania since age nine) and things just snowballed from there due to lack of treatment and abusive relationships. At its worst I was suicidal for a two year stretch, and I eventually started developing other symptoms like panic attacks and compulsive skin cutting.

Now, any rhetoric about about how it's all just a matter of willpower makes me want to set fire to things.

I passed my thesis defense and am now mired in the final revisions that my committee wanted. The end is in sight!