i just finished watching valley of the dolls and bully. and i watched the last hour of bully and oh my fucking lord am i sick. it came to the part of the killing the bully/friend guy and oh my god i got in a ball and started to shake and cry and wanna vomit. i mean i was scared and it wasn't a scary movie it was more or a drama. but it made me sick ( Read more... )

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haha hehe i am so very dandy still. not letting one person knock my parade down. i have this fascination with thininess its like i love to look in the mirror to see which angle makes me look thinner. my wrist are inches and so are my ankles. i have hip bones that you can see. but i need to work out more to just become more physically fit thin. i am ( Read more... )

i'm about to cry. cause now kyle is going on to dis the site i made. its not just about the site i made as a joke. its the fact he is dissing me in it. i haven't made any directs towards him and i wanna be friends and now all i can do is cry and shake cause it shows me how much i was to him. it hurts me alot to think any of this. i wanna be friends ( Read more... )

ok so i have pretty much worked all day on my butt like a bum. and finally at 8 i got the bright idea i need to take a shower so i grabbed what one needs to take a shower. at first i turned on the hot water and then BAM spiders i was freaked a bit. so i washed two down the drain and one on the ground i picked up with toilet paper and placed in ( Read more... )

i want my own show on MTV. haha would that not be funny? ok i could so see me on MTV with my own show rocking it up. they'd probably give me cash for the show and i'd use that money to rock this world with my friends. haha it would just be rad. JOEL is making me mad like WOO its like dude get off my back now. i try to help and he wants someone to ( Read more... )

ok so last night i had a crazy dream. it had kyle as the main character he like threw something at my house and his friends were with him. them todd stayed with me at my house them this other guy that was their friend was there and he totally hit on me and asked to go on a date and i was like WOO ok so i did. haha it was funny and i never saw the ( Read more... )

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the real heart has nothing to do with love its something else. something invisible. [to you i was lonely night?] where is it all your life? this heart they speak of. i think it is your pocket all your life and once you are the sweet 16 you take it out to show off the shiny not broken warm heart. its smooth and you are so open to everything. then ( Read more... )

i need to update its been a while. so this years is ok so far besides the fact my father wants to put me on birthcontrol thinking i'm a slut! i know i know WTF i have no sex and i hardly think it but haha to my hmm for thinking. i am fine and swell and dandy. i am bored and cold right now. i have this puter in the office cause my dad's fixing it. i ( Read more... )