i think the world hates me sometimes...blah. oh well. the world is dumb anyway ( Read more... )

it snowed!!! it finally snowed in flagstaff!! it's insanely cold. but awesom!!! yayy

after years of frustrating people with my lack of openness, and my paranoia concerning conversation, and my complete inability to talk to basically anyone...i have decided that i am going to try as hard as i possibly can to stop doing that, and just be comfortable enough that i can talk to people, about...whatever. i know for a fact that inspite of ( Read more... )

have you ever desperately wanted to tell someone something, or do something, but could not go through with it to save your life? that is where i am currently stuck. it's a strange place to be. filled with apprehension, and paranoia, and it's hard to say why. it is as if the reason that you don't want to tell them has become huge and overwhelming, ( Read more... )

i survived my fist semester of college!! woot!! go me. it was super eventful in my mind. however i have been terrible about writting things down. which is a little tragic...oh well. i know there are things i wouldn't have written about...that i may have wanted to. or if i actually wrote about it, it was super confusing and shady. cause that it how ( Read more... )

it's interesting how we do certian things and say certain things. if you look at how those things effect us, it's really quite puzzling at times. i mean sometimes our reactions makes sense. and sometimes. they just don't. recently i told a friend of mine that i liked them, in a letter, cause i'm wimpy like that. then i kinda freaked out. not really ( Read more... )

i'm very....emotionally dead right now. i have no idea what to feel, or think. i'm just kinda....there. it's weird. i tried to hard to freak out yesterday. and it took everything out of me. and i ended up freaking out anyway. grrr. whatever. all of my energy is gone...that's not good. at least i have a weekend to re-coop

aren't thursdays glorious days. i never realized it before, but they really are. they are my favoritist days next to saturdays of course. :) they are my least frantic, most laid back day of the week. it's lovely. and they are rather close to my favorite day. :) i actually have time to just sit back and be on a thursday. it's nice. i miss that. not ( Read more... )

this weekend has been weird. i've managed to have a massive anxiety attack/nervous breakdown, and worry everyone around me, as well as flirt insanely with some of my new really good friends. but we won't get into that. it' was fun. loads of fun. it helped me reaize some things about myself. so that works too. :) the anxiety attack was not so fun, ( Read more... )

hmm. i feel like i have something to say. quite a bit actually. but i do not know what.