TSN: Preliminary (2/2)

[thedeepeekay]

For warnings see Part 1.

Comments

[anonymous]

DFAJSSK D;OIJ

WHY

SERIOUSLY. THE ONLY THING SADDER THAN EDUARDO/MARK IS EDUARDO/MARK WHERE EDUARDO DOESN'T EVEN EXIST. THANKS A LOT.

[des_pudels_kern]

I... uhm. Sorry? *hands over stressball* But in the end he did get him back, in a way, that's not entirely sad, right?

[des_pudels_kern]

Thank you! :D I tried to have Mark walk that narrow line between being self-aware and in control on the one hand and getting too caught up in his own illusion without even realising because he thinks knowing the fact that Eduardo is not real takes away the risk of losing said control. And Eduardo, like anything made up of hopes and dreams and fears and doubts, is a creation of emotion at his core, underneath Mark's facts and hacks and the persona of papers and online data he has built, and as such does not always work the way Mark consciously wants him to but is influenced by what his subconsciousness expects or demands. It's how I interpreted Eduardo's hostility towards Sean and refusal to go to California and 'get with the program' - the needs Mark had created Eduardo to meet were beginning to get filled by others, by Dustin and Chris and Sean and Facebook, and, not needing Eduardo anymore, Mark's mind began to slowly get rid of him

[sweetmadness379]

Well, what can I say my love? Besides sorry it took me so long to comment, I know, I suck at life, also time management. This is beyond perfect. It seems yesterday we started discussing this 'verse after you sad tagging all over the place under a Donnie Darko gifset. It was the scene with the psychologist who asks Donnie if his new friend is a real one or an imaginary one. See? I suck at time management but no one beats me at remembering random information. Now, that's totally useful in real life. ANYHOW. This fic is a work of wonder and awesomeness. And sadness, let's not forget sadness. Honestly I am not sure I'll ever, ever recover from this. The only other thing that has ever brought me as much emotional pain as this fic is that time I watched TSN and an extremely sad episode of Supernatural right after. Okay I am obviously rambling, and besides reiterating how much I love you as a writer and how talented I think you are there's not much more for me to say. So. Yeah. I love you for writing this but I also hate you for writing this

[thedeepeekay]

Eh, time management. It's taken me a week to reply to this, so I'm not one to judge. *hugs* Thank you! I have so many memories of this fic, especially of leaving tags of sadness (because the post-tag writing mostly happened in a haze of panic) under more or less relevant gifs and graphics, and you being there to sadface at all of them, and every now and then West Coast comes up on my MP3 player and makes me sad, and I guess everything related to this fic is one giant sadfest. Except for the love born from bonding over the sadness, of course.

[superschnittiu]

i cant tell you how much this has moved me, as the complete concept is new to me but it gets me beyond any belief!!! thanks for that, id like the doby ferris parts, those were brilliant!!!!

[thedeepeekay]

Thank you! The whole fic started out in reaction to a Donnie Darko gif, so in all fairness I can't quite take credit for the idea,but I did my best to take the concept and fit it into the TSN 'verse, from the pre-movie parts to the depositions, and I'm glad it worked so well and elicits such emotional responses from people. And thank you for taking the time to comment, I appreciate it!

[aubergineautumn]

Unique, and sad, and brilliant

[thedeepeekay]

High praise, I feel honoured! :D I'm glad you liked the story (or maybe that it hurt the right way, considering the sadness), and thank you for taking the time to comment and let me know!