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An impossible situation I find myself in with no answer but to crash and burn. My eyes see beauty and they want it near me. They call to her in silent yearnings. They try to show her how beautiful they are..
It is funny how much silence speaks. I find my heart burning tonight because I was not filled with enough of what I believe to be a most precious thing. A Goddess who probably does not even realize that I exist or admire her.
My eyes do cry to her, on the rare occasions she cross their path. They implore her to gaze into them and for her heart to beat the same.. But, I believe this is all futile. A worthless effort on my part.
I write many poems about the person I have never spoken to, just admired from a far. And saying things like this could be the end of me. But my feelings do not feel they should be kept quiet much longer, they want to scream the words.
It is funny how your heart deceives you sometimes. Or should I say your mind. It sees beauty and it beats faster, it tries to whisper for you to reach for it, yet you know you should not.
But I know that the things you reach hardest for will crumble to sand in your shaking palm. But if I do not find the love I search for in this life, I will still search for her in death. (Yes I am a weirdo)
As Kamelot boldy puts it:
Once I believed I could find
Just a trace of her beloved soul
Once I believed she was all
Then she smothered my beliefs
One cold winter's night
I may follow her voice to the river
Leave me for now and forever
Leave what you can
Somewhere in time I will find you and haunt you again
Like the wind sweeps the earth
My heart is heavy in my chest and sad. It has betrayed me far too many times. These words I write now will mean nothing soon and be forgotten by everyone, but my heart will still hurt the same.