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Quick rant with no actual point other then to vent my frustration on relationships. Okay. Background: A few years ago, I was dumb and got emotionally and romantically involved with a married guy. Thankfully, the idiocy didn't last longer then a month. While I won't be stupid enough to say it won't happen again in some form, such as simply having a crush or maybe getting involved with a couple, or some other form of an alternative relationship, I'm hoping I don't have to worry about losing my head and trying to get a guy or girl to leave his/her spouse for me or anything like that. Not exactly what was involved in the first one, but nonetheless something I want to keep it from happening.
HOWEVER. In the past MONTH I have had not one, but TWO guys that are married hit on me. Seriously. The first had recently changed his relationship with his wife to an open relationship and was looking for a 'playpal'. I just am not into the relationship sans intimacy & feelings, not wired that way. :\
The second was a guy who was just a little younger then me and has been married for TEN MONTHS, but his wife doesn't really get into sex, and he apparently found me attractive, so he wanted me to come over while his wife was out for a few hours of fucking. Sadly, I was tempted, because he's hot. But both the cheating thing and the sans-intimacy thing bothers me. So I explained. And he KEPT asking.
Kept.
Asking.
Repeatedly.
And no, it wasn't because he really liked me or anything. It was just because he figured it'd fun and I was, theoretically, available. Then after a bit of discussion on the issue, he basically said the reason he has no problem cheating on his wife is because he knows she'll forgive him.
I would have beat him with my shoe, but we were chatting on IM. -_-; Ass. Ah, and when I said no? He called me names. O_o; Immature ass. Anyway, I told him he has issues and he needs to have some sort of conversation with his wife. A week later, he comes back to tell me they've agreed to have an open relationship, since she just isn't as into sex as he is, and he asks if I'm up for it.
I told him I started dating a friend of mine and wouldn't feel comfortable since I'm involved. He asked, "aww, just once?" and I pretty much stopped trying to have intelligent conversation with him.
I just want a relationship with real intimacy, but it's not going to happen. All the people I like are just not plausible, and the rst are people I'd rather skewer on a stick.
Sigh. Sorry. u_u Done with rant.
Nothing much going on. Trying to figure out school and where I'm going to live. Just don't know what to do, and feel very restricted because of my car.
I'm trying to keep a positive attitude, avoid depression, but lack of connection to people, lack of intimacy, lack of relationships, it really bothers me. I don't just mean having a romantic relationship, I mean friends and family too. Home life sucks because Echo is freaking out constantly, my mother is starting to cry more, my grandmother is just making everything worse, and there's nothing I can do but sit here.
God. /wank. Sorry.
HOWEVER. In the past MONTH I have had not one, but TWO guys that are married hit on me. Seriously. The first had recently changed his relationship with his wife to an open relationship and was looking for a 'playpal'. I just am not into the relationship sans intimacy & feelings, not wired that way. :\
The second was a guy who was just a little younger then me and has been married for TEN MONTHS, but his wife doesn't really get into sex, and he apparently found me attractive, so he wanted me to come over while his wife was out for a few hours of fucking. Sadly, I was tempted, because he's hot. But both the cheating thing and the sans-intimacy thing bothers me. So I explained. And he KEPT asking.
Kept.
Asking.
Repeatedly.
And no, it wasn't because he really liked me or anything. It was just because he figured it'd fun and I was, theoretically, available. Then after a bit of discussion on the issue, he basically said the reason he has no problem cheating on his wife is because he knows she'll forgive him.
I would have beat him with my shoe, but we were chatting on IM. -_-; Ass. Ah, and when I said no? He called me names. O_o; Immature ass. Anyway, I told him he has issues and he needs to have some sort of conversation with his wife. A week later, he comes back to tell me they've agreed to have an open relationship, since she just isn't as into sex as he is, and he asks if I'm up for it.
I told him I started dating a friend of mine and wouldn't feel comfortable since I'm involved. He asked, "aww, just once?" and I pretty much stopped trying to have intelligent conversation with him.
I just want a relationship with real intimacy, but it's not going to happen. All the people I like are just not plausible, and the rst are people I'd rather skewer on a stick.
Sigh. Sorry. u_u Done with rant.
Nothing much going on. Trying to figure out school and where I'm going to live. Just don't know what to do, and feel very restricted because of my car.
I'm trying to keep a positive attitude, avoid depression, but lack of connection to people, lack of intimacy, lack of relationships, it really bothers me. I don't just mean having a romantic relationship, I mean friends and family too. Home life sucks because Echo is freaking out constantly, my mother is starting to cry more, my grandmother is just making everything worse, and there's nothing I can do but sit here.
God. /wank. Sorry.