Title: This isn't love.
Pairings: Rachel/Santana
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Santana loves Rachel, but does Rachel feel the same?
Author:
theficfreakk Word Count: 1,286
Sequels to:
1,
2,
3 Note: Hope you like it!
Rachel was depressed, lying down on her desk, gazing at her facebook profile with only 11 friends, who were all from glee club.
She put her cursor on the 2 friend requests and, click.
Jacob Ben Israel Wants To Be Your Friend
She quickly pressed ignore, and sent him a message.
"Jacob, if you ever add me again i swear i will report you." Send.
Rachel scrolled down to see her other friend request.
Brittana Lopez wants to be your friend.
She raised an eyebrow, blinked at her name. Brittana Lopez... What the hell?
She accepted, clicked her online list and there stood the great brittana lopez. She clicked her name and said:
Rachel BerryStar Says: Hi
Brittana Lopez says: Halo, Berrystar, more like starberry...
Rachel Berrystar says: Haha.
Brittana Lopez says: Nothing funny about it
Rachel Berrystar says: Since when did your name become Brittana.....
Rachel Berrystar says: Well..?
Brittana Lopez says: are you jealous =))
Rachel Berrystar says: it's not working Santana.
Rachel closed her chat window and had another notification, it was a family request.
Brittana Lopez requested to be your wife.
Rachel grinned, her chat window popped up again.
Brittana Lopez says: Thank You. I love you wifeyyy :P
Rachel Berrystar says: Stupid Brittana. Luvv ya like a huzband :D
Brittana Lopez says: haha stop it. i've had a dream that we were REALLY getting married :)
After that Rachel screenshotted that part, it made her heart skip a beat whenever she read that message, she had the biggest smile on her face. She continued typing.
Rachel Berrystar says: that would be lovely.
Brittana Lopez says: i think you're my wife. for realz.
Rachel Berrystar says: I love you. I have to go Brittana ;)
Brittana Lopez says: You won't mind telling your husband why you have to go..?
Rachel Berrystar: I love you. Brittana!
Rachel Berrystar is offline.
Santana sighed, she wanted to smack herself on the face after what happened.
At school they met face to face,
"Hey Rachel, i want to aplogize for acting like..you know. I'm just scared that I'll just end up with a broken heart. and i never wanted love to get into me..and because it will ruin my reputation. I was just scared that it would Rachel, i just got lost and now I'm picking you. Not socializing." Santana gulped.
Rachel never knew that Santana had a soft side.
"You don't sound like you're sure. Are you?" Rachel raised her eyebrow.
Before Santana could say anything she continued talking.
"Stop joking Santana, to you, I'm this. Ugly Monster." Rachel closed her locker and faced her.
"But i still love you like a husband." She smirked.
"You want me to be a bitch?" Santana pleaded.
Rachel bit her lip, that came out wrong. She held her breathe and closed her eyes.
"Everything's so complicated. i know. I know that, why don't we just be together now?" Rachel zipped her lips, she couldn't even say anything more embarrassing.
"Oh, uhmm..." She was speechless. Rachel shrugged at Santana and walked passed her to go to her next class.
Santana was seriously confused.
"I said you're my wife, we're more than together. Stop being so stupid.." Santana said sarcastically.
Rachel paused for a while, she heard that. And she loved that.
"Ohh and you don't have to answer StarBerry. But i love you." Santana said it out loud.
"I love you too Brittana." Both of them turned around to face each other and hugged. They weren't exclusive, they weren't sure at all. A hug would do.
"Get ready for slushie attacks Santana. Sorry." The shorter girl hugged her even tighter.
"I won't. I'll make sure no guy will give you a slushie facial, they won't because I'm the person who will kick that guy's ass. You hear me?" Santana had tears in her eyes.
Both of them went to class after that.
After School
Santana Lopez invited Rachel to her house to have that usual "The Talk"
Rachel sat on Santana's couch, and faced Santana, holding hands.
"So, are we gonna talk about it?" Rachel asked.
"No need, we only have talks to decide if we want to be together. And, I'm guessing that we love each other, so we ARE together Razzie. You're too cute." Santana took off her nerdy glasses and gave her her cute smile.
Rachel put her legs off the couch, she let go of Santana's hand.
"is this love even real." Rachel's eyes started getting teary, she was lost.
Santana's mouth opened wide and started worrying.
"I'm so sorry, i could of taken things much slower. Now i ruined it, it will always be this Santana Lopez and this Rachel Berry. I'm sorry i just, i just, there's no hope now and-"
Rachel tried to calm her down. But it wouldn't work.
"Just please leave Rachel."
She stood up, walked towards the door like a miserable person, and never looked back. Just opened the door, and shut it close.
Santana was crying deeply inside, she thought there was hope for them. And she was just imptatient.
I'm such an idiot.
Everything was awkward whenever they passed by in the school hallway, or ever see each other in a starbucks drive-thru, or in glee club.
They had to act like nothing happened.
It was the end of glee club, and Finn had been staring at Rachel Berry all day. Little did he know that Rachel was a lesbian. While he was walking to Rachel Santana calmed down on her seat and focused on Finn, she wanted to know everything.
"Rachel, I think we need to work a little bit more on us. I mean, call me an idiot for breaking up with you..."
That's all Santana heard, Finn went all quiet after that. But suddenly Rachel glanced back at her to see if she was watching. Instantly Rachel put her arms around Finn and kissed him. That was when Santana's heart stopped, she felt dead after that. Of course she didn't show it.
Even though Santana couldn't take it anymore she continued to see what happened next. They went outside to have some privacy.
Okay, San, time to do a little desperate stalking.
She moved her hips from side to side, no facial expression; just followed them. But when she passed by her locker she opened it and grabbed her binoculars. Santana knew what she was doing, she's had sex with Finn before anyway.
While Santana was looking around the parking area, she saw an empty Mercdes Benz, looked like the one Rachel and Santana stole.
What the hell, she can't just leave that Mercedez Benz alone! She ignored that and went on her own car, she followed Rachel and Finn to where they were going. She was right behind their car when they decided to pull over, Santana was so distracted and nearly bumped into another car.
Crap!
Santana was looking for some car space, luckily there was one parking space 2 cars next to Finn's car. Santana had one of those big Ford cars, so she had no trouble getting a good view of them. She zoomed even more in her binoculars.
She could only see the back of Rachel's head and Finn's face. He was speaking to her in a calm way, Finn brushed her hair over Rachel's ear and kissed her again. She backed off Finn, taking Finn's hands off her, she got outside her car and took her cellphone out, she was calling somebody.
Ringgggggg! Ringgggggg!
It was Santana's phone, she looked at her Blackberry.
Rachel Berry is calling you
Santana looked at her phone one more time, no, can't be. It wasn't her. She knew Rachel hated her. Santana ignored the phone and drove back home. She turned on her computer when she arrived home and logged on Facebook.
A chat window appeared, it was Rachel Berry.
Rachel Starberry says: hey
Santana Lopez says: yes?
Rachel Starberry says: I want us to remain friends.
Rachel Starberry says: i can see you changed your name, still not over me?
Santana Lopez says: Screw You.
Santana Lopez is offline
Rachel stared at that 5 lined chat, those 2 words made Berry cry for the whole night.