I feel oddly left out when people start talking about their sexualities, not because I am repressed or inexperienced. I just hate myself and my body so much that I don't feel that I have the right to be sexual at all. The sad thing is that I really, really want to. Hell, I'd be damn good at it. I'm just afraid of becoming that fucker that gets everyone feeling grossed out just from the idea of him/her having sexual exploits.
Sometimes I think that I should just break off all connections to my friends, and hide in my room for the rest of my life, or do that other cliche'd final solution thingie. I can't stand existing like this. I feel so incredibly fucking stifled. That's why I've never had a real relationship. I think that's why I don't know how to be intimate.
i, seeming pretty damn innocent when compared to most of my friends (i've kissed one guy. that's the extent of my experience before june), almost had sex with a guy seven years older than me a week ago, and i'm wondering how much i would regret doing it before the summer is up.
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Sometimes I think that I should just break off all connections to my friends, and hide in my room for the rest of my life, or do that other cliche'd final solution thingie. I can't stand existing like this. I feel so incredibly fucking stifled. That's why I've never had a real relationship. I think that's why I don't know how to be intimate.
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For the record.
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Also sex is good. And fun. And one of the best things about being a creature that has sex for fun (and in my case, the knowledge to prevent pregnancy)
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i, seeming pretty damn innocent when compared to most of my friends (i've kissed one guy. that's the extent of my experience before june), almost had sex with a guy seven years older than me a week ago, and i'm wondering how much i would regret doing it before the summer is up.
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