Btw, this is NOT my mood... ;)

[theforceinme]

My wretched self.

I walk in the rain,
to hide from my tears.

I wash in the rain,
to cleanse all my fears.

I wish for the rain,
to cloud up the day,

To join my distress.

Copyrighted by Juan Morey.

Use as desired.

Dedicated to the only special woman in my life, apart from my Mother, Grandma and Grandma.

Comments

rain..

[suisseaupair]

Very interesting poem.. but why would you write it if you didn't feel that way? I always found that poems are a relfection of a particular moment, an experience, a desire or a longing that people go through.. ;)

Re: rain..

[theforceinme]

Well, i didn't say that i wasn't in that mood at a time.

Soon after our chat started yesterday, that's how i was feeling... but by the end of it, i wasn't feeling like that.

Though I do still feel distressed. Worried... about you, us, etc. And i'm especially afraid that i won't be able to buffer you next time... ack, i don't know and i have to work.

I hate being at PUCMM Labs again, memories of too many discussions and too many hours with my heart racing in front of a screen.

I don't know why i feel like i have to temper you sometimes, like a piece of iron who must be molded into the shape it needs to be, but i do know that i don't feel like i can do that much more.

You know what i mean, and you know it's not about controlling you.

Re: rain..

[suisseaupair]

(maybe you can just email me this instead of putting this kind of reply online?!?!?!)

Re: rain..

[theforceinme]

Sure, i'll do that too :) But what can you posibly be ashamed of letting others know about? You read their diaries: they have their own problems, and i bet more than half of them wished they actually had a love to deal with, work with.

My thoughts anyhow :)