Something's wrong... I can't decide if it's worse to hurt and not know why, or to know why you hurt but feel impotent to do anything about it.

I don't know if it's worse to be ignored in person, or ignored from a distance... I get both, or maybe it's just all in my mind.

For the last week or so I have been sinking deeper and deeper into... Umm... Dispair > me > Depression. Or for those who don't know what greater than/less thans mean... Something more than the blues but less than down right hopelessness ( Read more... )

i can't remember the last time i had trouble sleeping. this streak has come to an end. my thoughts aren't cooperating with my desire to sleep. i'm starting to wonder if i am not like some blind bull in a china shop, laying waste to precious things out of simple ignorance.

So... They arrested some dude in Thailand for the murder of Jean-Benet Ramsey (sp?). For those that don't remember her, she was this little girl who's crazy ass mom'd trotted around like a show dog from beauty pagent to beauty pagent ( Read more... )

To those who might care...
I'm not as desperatly sad as I might sound, at least not most of the time. Life sucks, sometimes I'm more used to it than others but, meh...
Anyway... Yesterday's lesson to myself was letting go, todays is fighting for what you want...
I have classes to sign up for...

!B

( Because Gollum, the Evil One, slipped away with my girl so fair... I've gotta ramble on. )

My head must be empty 'cause the past echoes, and keeps me awake.

No matter how bad it seems,
It can get worse.
It seems like life will go out of it's way to remind you of that should you ever doubt.

Suffice to say today has been the worst day in quite some time.