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Walking down the street ... head down ... I bumped into her. She looked at me and I looked back at her. She said, "You've been looking for me. You want answers. However, you already know what you need to know. You found me in this mess and you've seen me inside. I am afraid, but I can not let them see". I said, "I have been looking for you. I've ( Read more... )

Where has Nydia been all this time? She just disappeared one fine day. I thought the earth had swallowed her whole ... much like a python. I was worried she would never come back. Once or twice, I swore I caught glimpses of her in the midst of the crowds. She wasn't the same Nydia I knew. Her eyes were no longer bright and shiny. No beauty left in ( Read more... )

I dreamt about the person furthest from my mind these days, Hector. I was in my dad's car in the backseat ... and I looked around. It was a city ... but it wasn't quite NYC ... though for some reason I kept thinking it was Manhattan. Anyway, I see him from far away and I get out of the car. I ran straight into his arms and hugged him so tight. I ( Read more... )

I haven't really updated here in a while. I guess my little phase is over. Though, I have entered another phase. Now, it's the crying phase of my pain. I can not really say what's wrong with me. I am just hurting deeper than I let on. Even my soul wishes to fly far away. I feel myself crawling back into the shadows. Slowly, giving way to this ( Read more... )

Today is one of those days where I want to crawl into a hole and just die. Before you all panic, this is just a temporary phase ... so don't start trippin' about it. I am just fed up with so many things. I want to scream at the very top of my lungs to release everything I hold inside. However, I find that impossible right now. I am irritated at the ( Read more... )

Today I gave myself some therapy. I messed around making some more customizations to the journal. Yeah, I find working with html therapeutic even though I honestly despise html. I made my background stay fixed in one position ... so just the text moves ... which is way cool. That was fairly easy ... and then I worked on the scrollbars for my lj ( Read more... )

I just woke up and I feel weird. Almost like I am expecting something. Hm ... I wonder.

This week has been crazy to say the least. So much going on that sometimes it's hard to keep track. For the most part, I've been working in Cleveland ... that makes me very exhausted believe it or not. Especially since it's a county job and it seems half the world wants county benefits and whatever. I've been filing so many old cases to make space ( Read more... )

I'm alive. Just been too tired to really write in here. I've been working ... doing the usual. Been at the church ... it was all good. Not much to say ... no insight.

Much love to you all my children.