190. Saying what actually is on her mind.

[thegooddrjones]

You know, I really wish that people didn't know so much about my sex life, not because I'm at all ashamed of it, but because I find it awkward and I don't want people to think of me like that

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[darknessb4me]

I needed someone to tell me that everything was alright during the flood where the Lich King was here. I also need people to tell me they don't want me killing myself.

I do like you, Martha. I feel like you'll be gone soon, though. You two love each other, there's really not anything tying you here.

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[thegooddrjones]

I wish you wouldn't kill yourself. It doesn't help anything, you know, especially here. You can be redeemed, you know. You're making progress, it's just slow.

We're going to stay until Mozenrath is done, and we both need to graduate an inmate. We're not even assigned yet.

Unless I get pregnant which I don't think I will. But if I do, I can't stay here.

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[darknessb4me]

I can?

...I really hope you're taking precautions against that, for more than one reason. A baby in this environment would be a disaster.

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[thegooddrjones]

Of course you can.

I am taking precautions. Loads of them and I check every day. If I ever did get pregnant I would leave immediately.

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[strangehstorian]

Jim Profit told me not to ask you whether it would be alright to augment his melatonin sleeping pills with slumber sand, but I am going to ask you anyway because I feel your position deserves the respect and also I don't really respect the wishes of inmates.

Is it alright if I do that? Slumber sand is magical, and therefore potentially addictive, but it would take enormous quantities over hundreds of years, and in the meantime it seems to be 100% effective.

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[thegooddrjones]

We have things that would help as well, but I'm worried about him having access to them when he gets home. The only thing that works for fixing sleep is long term behavioral conditions or having someone holds you who makes you feel safe. That's why I can sleep now even though I couldn't for over a year.

I think maybe giving him a bit for a few nights is a good idea to return him to a baseline, but only a little bit and not long term.

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[strangehstorian]

Alright. I'll see if I can subtly replace the sand with a placebo after he trusts it.

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[thegooddrjones]

He still shouldn't be taking something every day.

It will making him psychologically dependent on them, even if it's not addicting.

[hourglass_twin]

What was wrong with the recent port? It was modern, and nicer than a normal place should be. There weren't even any manure piles in the streets.

[thegooddrjones]

It was modern for you, but it wasn't modern for me.

[goodgrasshopper]

I hope for that too, Martha. It would be nice to be able to relax for once.

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And I like you. I don't have a lot of real friends here--people I can always trust--but you're one of them.

[thegooddrjones]

It would be, as much as we can relax here.

[Private]
I like you too. And I trust you, and I worry about you.

Also I really like the purple hair. Your conversation with Sev made me consider dyeing my whole head purple, but I expect it would only make my issues worse.

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[goodgrasshopper]

You don't need to worry about me--I'm doing all right. [Mostly. Ish. Except kind of not.]

Thank you--I like it, too. And I'm happy to dye it for you--I can get the temporary stuff for you. Like that time we did pink. That was fun.

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[thegooddrjones]

I want to believe you, but I don't, but I'll try to give you a bit of space for a while.

It was fun. Remember when we did green? He liked the green. It actually helped us a lot when I showed up like that after my hen night.

That was a rough week. I thought our marriage was to be over almost before it began.

[peektuttut]

It's hard not to like you, Martha.

[thegooddrjones]

I don't think that's true, just judging from the lack of response from other people on my post.

[peektuttut]

People are lazy. That doesn't change anything.

[thegooddrjones]

[Oh this flood.]

You're right, it doesn't.