i need to stop lying to myself.

i am very confused with everything right now!

i need to pull myself out of everything for a short period of time to regain who i really am.

it is quite unfortunate that my ability to write a work of art is almost nonexistent. i always have these great ideas about a great poem with great lines and significant meanings but once i sit down to put it on paper, it forms this protective shell that prevents me from diving into my artistic pools and fishing out a beautiful picture of words ( Read more... )

today has been a pretty alright day. i am still a bit burned from last night but it is alright. we need more "chilling alone" days like this. i like alone time.

also, i think i will take myself off birth control because god knows i'm not getting any, haha

i havent been able to function high as of late. i think im going crazy.

IVE NEVER FELT THIS MUCH FUCKING PASSION AND HATE INSIDE OF ME BEFORE ADFHSDLGKHSLDAGHSLKDGHLSKDGHLSKGHLKSGHSA

I WANNA FUCKING RIP THINGS IN HALF AND SHIT DSGHSALGJHALKJSGHLKSHAG

lmfao, okay so i have this little cooler i take with me to school so that i can keep my tea and shit cold for lunch, well i left it outside on my driveway and i think i ran it over HAHAHAHA

OH AND yeah my parents are leaving so woot woot partaaaayyy

forgive the last entry. that was a result of a frustrated, angry, and bitter diana. last night was pretty cool, i had a minor freak out, though, haha. anyway uh yeah my parents flight got canceled yesterday but i think they might leave today. i mean, they better leave today or imma be pissed. D:RAAAAAAAWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRRRRRR GAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ( Read more... )

why is he doing this to me? why can't he realize how much he's hurt me and move the fuck on with his life and pretend i don't exist like i've done with him? why is he so fucking persistent? i don't want to be his motherfucking friend, i want him to hate me as much as i hate him. he is not making this easy. i have worked up the courage for the past ( Read more... )

sooo like yeahhhh im worried about a friendship that might go wrong because of a sensitive issue that in the long run will probably be nothing anyway, so i don't know whether to embrace it or avoid it. im not jessyka, i wouldn't do that. LOLZ. SORRY JASON I KNO SHES UR FREND LAWLWLEWLEWZLSAWL ( Read more... )

i still hate you, i probably wont ever stop hating you. you suck. i hate you. die. asshole. faggot. sexist. i hate you.