since i could
wednesday i went to edinboro and hung out with lindsey... i realized how much i miss college life... :( i can't wait to go back...
went bowling again wed night :D sucked reeeeeeeel bad
thursday... worked at my mum's office, went to dave's house and watched kung fu hustle... HA.... watch out guys... i might pull the lions roar on you...
"you're the kind of woman they want to marry, not the kind of girl they want to date. they don't want someone now that they can relate to, someone they can joke around with and wrestle with, and watch sports with. they don't want a girl who's passionate, and going to love them unconditionally. they want someone for now, someone for the short term, they're not interested in someone who could be around for a while. you're too much of a woman and not enough of a girl. so you'll just have to wait, wait until they grow up, wait until they're done screwing around, wait until they see you for who you really are. until then... you'll always be close, but never as close as you want to be, you'll always be the girl friend, never the girlfriend, you'll always be buried in the back of his mind... but he'll always be on yours. it isn't fair, but then again, what is? certainly not watching the prettier, skinnier, taller, dumber, less interesting, less quirky, more standard i'm-the-perfect-girlfriend-and-i-look-hott-in-almost-nothing girls get every guy you've ever even hoped would glance your way. especially when they want you to introduce them to your friends, give them advice, comfort them when they're upset about the girl who's hurt them like you never would have.... no. it isn't fair. and you'll just have to wait and watch. and go on being invisible, just like you always have been...."
friday is always good stuff... best day of the week, helped my mom out a bunch, worked on college stuff, AUDITIONS!! hardest things ever! congrats to everyone, you were all amazing. and ashley and i are going to show you the best time ever :D attempted to see jarhead, sold out, pizza hut instead... played the what if game and decided i want a monkey and if you have a problem with it TOUGH! chris wants jeans and sam wants an M3... we're pretty easy to please...
ended up in the park with a shitload of people from the original 3... smoked cigars... i was silly stringed and it was HIGHLY UNNECCESARY and yeah, good times were, as always, had by all
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saturday after i worked a long hard day at the movie theater... yeah... can you believe it? she actually called me back to work... i watched Saw II with the crew and then we went to denny's... after i completely changed in the parking lot of course... who doesn't love a free show? slept at ambers... went to bed at like 4 got almost no sleep, super late to church in the morning... more later.... going home from work... finally!!
so you know... i care about you. and i hate this. i hate what you're doing. and i hate that you can't see it for what it really is. and i know that i shouldn't, but i feel responsible... somehow... i think i couldv'e stopped it. then again... maybe not. but you should know that you're wrong. this is wrong. you weren't made for this and you ARE worth so much more. just so you know. you're always on my mind... and in my prayers. and they're not wasted.