Father

[thehiredgoon]

I wish I could show that bastard my wounds.
I wish I could show him how he hurts me and always makes me cry.
I wish I could show him how he's helped me stay angry all these years.
I Wish I could show him how he always makes me feels inside.
I carry so much filth and trash and hatred in me because of that asshole.
I could never be a good father or a good

Comments

[insidel]

I'd like to say something to make you feel better but really there is nothing. The truth is you have to find answers to your own problems and apparently writing livejournals isn't doing much for you. Stop analyzing your relationship with your father or how good of a father you'll be. Don't live in the future. Live in the present. You don't want to live at home. Get a job. Save up money. Move in with friends (maybe james' place has an opening). Than after that figure out what you want to do

[thehiredgoon]

Pah! what relationship? There is none ..I plan for the future and live in the present ..I do plan on landing a job and saving my money so I can get the hell away from my family. I'll do what I can to make that happen that is for damn sure. Wish I could move into james' place but there isnt an opening unfortunately. I will definately learn from his mistakes..I sure as fuck dont want to put my kids through this kind of bullshit..
Unfortunately Until I finally tell him whats what I'll always have anger with me..but one day I'll tell him what the fuck is what.
Until that day I have other things to do.