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theivyscribe

A Sucky Hallelujah

Jun 04, 2006 05:23

My Honors Thesis, my pet project that I have dreamt about for a year and then slaved at for six months, is finished at last.

And I am angry, frustrated, and fucking depressed.

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Comments 8

matharineashley June 4 2006, 15:18:21 UTC

I'm really sorry, that must truly suck. Any chance you can get more input on it from your professor over the summer, throwing him a couple really good guilt trips about how badly he fucked this up, to get it to the point you'd like? You'd think a professor would enjoy working with a student so dedicated as to keep pursuing something after graduation....

theivyscribe June 4 2006, 15:25:10 UTC

Guilt Trip = success. He agreed to help me with future drafts and is at this moment writing up notes on how to make it into something more than "an early draft."

But I don't think I want to work on this over the summer. I've written four drafts, and to be honest, I may need four more to make it perfect. Maybe if I put it away for a while, come back to it with fresh eyes a year from now, I can rewrite it much better than I would this summer.

This summer, I want to write more, but no more "important" stuff like W.B. Yeats. I want to do something fun and cool, like a Lovecraft adaptation... And being moody and disenchanted with academia is a good place to be emotionally when reading Lovecraft :)

Or would it be best to finish what I've started ASAP?

margho June 4 2006, 17:15:04 UTC

Or would it be best to finish what I've started ASAP?

Sometimes, it's better to just put something away for a while, let it sit, and then come back to it with fresh eyes. You have written so many drafts of this, I would recommend just putting it away for a while and coming back to it later, when you're in an academic mood again and wanting to work on the Yeats again :)

mythomanic June 4 2006, 19:44:02 UTC

The best take years to finish something good. Leave the project for a while, take some time off, work on something else. There'll be an epiphany eventually, and then you'll come back and work on it and it'll be amazing. :)

shmike95 June 4 2006, 15:25:39 UTC

bah. look inward for validation.

congrats on accomplishing an honors thesis!

metallian June 4 2006, 16:08:45 UTC

Yeah, sometimes advisors and such procrastinate as much as students (I've observed similar sorts of things happen in academia) and you end up getting extremely important information at the last minute.

Still, getting a good grade on it is pretty cool so congratulations! Writing a screenplay at all is hard, I took a screenwriting class and quickly realized I had a knack for coming up with scenes but no ability to weave them together into something coherent.

arxev June 4 2006, 16:27:56 UTC

*hugs* I'm sorry, dude. Knowing the man in question, I can't say I'm amazingly surprised, but that really sucks. At least he's willing to help you with it -- he might still be willing in a year, you never know. Or, at least, take his notes and put them aside for when you are ready, right?

bakaninja June 12 2006, 18:37:19 UTC

Jesus, dude. That's terrible! But buck up! It sounds good that he thought you were better than previous screenplay students he's had. And it's not fair to feel bad about this, since it's his fault that what you had was like a first draft. I'm sure if you'd been aware of your errors and had more time, you could have produced something great!