The whole school thing.....

[thejournalofkay]

Went grocery shopping before school

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[ume_chan]

I know how you feel, despite the sickness... but I prolly know that as well...

[ambivalentlove]

Dear Friend

[thejournalofkay]

I haven't been to church in forever, the last time I went was with you. I was still reading my bible though. Now, I dont touch it, I dont look at it, its something that I have and dont want to have and I'd probably throw it away or burn it if it werent for all the religious "taboo" on that kind of behavior. "God, why hast thou forsaken me" familiar words said by many totruted and twisted souls to a God who seems to relish is the pain of others. Oh... maybe its all a test. well I seem to recal being tested as an 8 yr old girl and the testing has never stopped. I thought I had proven myself to be a good person but obviously I'm not good enough for "God" because he keeps fucking me over and over again. I cant find peace, I cant find happiness and I'm not looking for religion. I might not be okay with the person that I'm slowly becoming because I dont want to be cold and bitter, but, I'm not okay with God either. Maybe, just maybe, if I thought he was really there and gave two shits about a skinny little white girl I'd try to hold on a

[ambivalentlove]

Well what if by just a chance of a hope that he sent me? Maybe he sent me to be in your life to show you his love and care?

[tbearsk8er]

"good things come to those who wait" Stick with it Kay. Your the strongest person I know, good things are in your future because you deserve them. Just hang in there