maybe i should go to bed....

[thekinard]

who ever said that Christianity made things better should be shot. i just spent quite some time with God, not that i dont love him with everything that i am, but my life is not any better for it. i guess it is by who it makes me, but i am having a very hard time today accepting where i have put myself. i need to just man up and do what i think i

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[anonymous]

And all that man is and has is meaningless, yet I find myself wanting. The trees should be greener, the sky bluer, and my car should run on sunlight. A selfish bastard, that's what I am. God mucked up, or was it me? Should the sky be bluer or is it already blue enough? And if it is as blue as it should be, what does that say of me? Is my selfishness insatiable? Will I eat all I see through my eyes to the point that my heart loses sight of what is actually being seen? My ice cream should never melt. I should let the starving children in Africa pass away. And who are you to borrow my screwdriver?! All hail selfishness!

I lay in wait for the day that selfishness falls away and dies like the dog who falls out of a fast moving pick-up truck. I lay in wait to make sure selfishness dies. I want to make sure that the vultures pick clean every last bit.