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[theladyskye]

I'm not really sure why I'm being assaulted by the past of late. Things I expected were long since buried have been making their way to the surface, and it's leaving me decidedly uncomfortable and kinda sad

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Feel sad for yourself.

[ctrlalttabby]

While your mother may not have wanted children, she made the decision to have both of you. There are parenting responsibilities that come with that decision, that your mother and mine seem to have missed.

Re: Feel sad for yourself.

[theladyskye]

Thank you, Frances. As much as I hope there are very few people who understand these things, it gives me a bit of comfort to know that my feelings are not inappropriate.

[livelovelibra]

*pulls you onto my lap and just holds you tight*

while i'm quite sad for your mother and would like to wallop her upside the head with the same clue by four i'd like to use on my own mother... i'm glad she did compromise because i for one would think this world a much dimmer place without you shining in it.

*kisses*

[theladyskye]

Thank you, T. I'm not sure why I'm still trying to reconcile these things years later. You'd think eventually I'd just make peace with it.

[livelovelibra]

if it makes you feel any better i am older than you (whipper snapper!) and i'm still doing the same thing with mine.

of course, this probably just made you feel worse knowing there's the possibility you aren't done with this yet.

but at least you aren't alone.

[themis1]

Honestly, mothers are so frequently inadequate I wonder how the human race has managed to last as long as it has. Mine frequently told me I was an 'accident' and spent my entire childhood telling me what I got wrong, and never praising me for anything I got right. I know any number of people with similar, or worse, stories.

Tell your sister she can invite who she damn well pleases, and have as many children as she would like (and can afford).

[theladyskye]

Oh sweetheart, I am soooooo sorry. No child should ever be made to feel like they were an "accident" and aren't good enough. Anyone who would does NOT deserve to be called "Mother."

:/

[lordjacknife]

When my parent's divorced, we all lived with my dad, since my mom couldn't have afforded to keep us. Then I still remember when I found out my Dad had wanted to abort me. (Heh, and I'm still pro-choice.) But it was a very VERY weird feeling.

But, to an extent, actions do speak louder than words. And while there are times I'm angry at my dad for not being the kind of ideal dad I wanted, on the other hand there are times I'm amazed that he did raise us. And I'm grateful for being raised, I am! ;p But at least I now understand why it always felt more like my dad was focused on doing the correct thing with us as opposed to what he was really interested in doing.