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[thelatehour]

"I don't know if anybody else out there tonight knows what it feels like to want somebody so bad that nothing & nobody can ever seem to fill that void, that's the situation that I'm talking about right now & if you feel me, sing this song with me, come on." - Mariah Carey

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[sex_sux]

I do. About several celebrities. About several people I meet but don't know. But once I get to know someone I can't stand them. I'm miserable. Lonely, obsessive, and hateful.

[thelatehour]

I've come to idealize a person & feel the same as what you've said, & I've ended up disappointed in myself for trying to live & do things for him, I've almost stood to worship him because I thought my love would make him see me, find more to me, release something intangible of my being for me to behold myself, I stood looking past his flaws & put down his insecurities to build him up, his personal scrutiny, me failing to realize that he had no control over my feelings, over me falling for his attention or kindness toward me & even from the beginning he never asked me for that, never sought to be adored. I was & have been left miserable, & lonely in his presence, obsessive & jealous of whatever he's been doing without me, or in front of me & I can't say that I was hateful, I was beyond that I'd say, just angry because I couldn't be his reciprocal. Moving forward.