i just found an old entry of mine that still rings true--

about my depression:
"i'm like one of those hand-up-the-ass puppets and i'm punching myself from the inside, never exhibiting the wear. the smile stays but the heart is masochistic... but i love that hand. i bite it as it feeds me. i'm glad to see it bleed. it is my hand. it is my enemy."

Friends-o-mine ( Read more... )

READY FOR A CHUCKLE? I thought all this shit with Jon was over, but oh no. He texted me last night--

Jon: Hey! How u doin?
Me: You cheated on me. u?
Jon: Hangn n there...Me: Ur fucking sick. leave me alone ( Read more... )

my pretties and i are building a hutch!! i will post pics later of our progress.

Check out my new color scheme! FIXED LINK!

"I traded my tomorrows to remain in yesterday."
--"Whiskey Tears" by Dierks Bentley

the time has come to never look back.

*breathes*
i think for now i'll just stick with, "ew, boys!"

paul and all those other sleezebags that wanna get in my pants can't go fuck themselves.

"...So if you think I’m gonnna settle down,
I‘ve got news for you,
I still got a lot of leavin’ left to do.

And as long as there’s a song
Left in this old guitar,
This life I’m bound to lead
Ain’t for the faint of heart.
So you won’t fall for me
If you know what’s good for you
‘cause I still got a lot of leavin’ left to do.

I guess the Lord made ( Read more... )

yay! internet in my room! had a great night with great folks. no regrets.

the other night i got pissed that jon had refused to talk to me for like 3 weeks, so i sent him some... colorfully mean text messages about i felt lied to and used. he sent one back accusing me of cheating on him, which of course was not true. he said that kathryn (my ( Read more... )

Y'all, I didn't know til just recently, but since I shat myself when I found out, I thought everyone else should know because this sure as fuck shouldn't be a secret.
ROZ IS GETTING MARRIED... in about a week. Please read her post about it. She is asking for our help!!

Finished the bottle...
Cried like a baby for him-- for the first time since Paul dumped me last semester. He called me this morning, so I think things are gonna be ok.