hey im back iwas sort of missing a few days wasnt avoifing anyone, i kno peoplw tried to call and i just ignored the phone. sunday morning i got a massive nose bleed that wouldnt stop, so i had to go to the er and they had to stick these nast tampon stick like things up my nose that had to stay there till tues when i went home so i coulnt breate ( Read more... )

so later in the night the vet called back after they did the autopsy on spencer. turns out he had an extremly aggressve cancer. he was fine in the spring when he went to the vet but they found a huge mass on his liver and one of his lungs and said that there was no way he would make another day. Y does cancer keep fucking my life when i was so ( Read more... )

This is like the worst week of my life finding out on the type of chemo ill be on will lose my hair putting me months and months behind getting my life bacak if i do because i know that cancer is harder to treat when it comes back. Then we just got back from the vet and we had to put my dog spencer to sleep, the bipolar one the one who winked and ( Read more... )

so went to the new docotor today, i will be in a clincal study of people with reoccuring sarcomas, turns out that i will lose my hair again, and it is harder to treat when they come back so yea im a little down

yea i havent updated in forever, probably because i havent done much of anything because i have been majorly depressed. Still waiting to see this new docotr and get shit setup for treatment it is such a pain seeing new docs because u have to wait for them to get all your medical shit and look at it. im sure ill get out of myfunk once i get treated ( Read more... )

this weekend i went down to my grammies house. it was alright. although on sunday we went to the lake and it was rather boring because there was no boat this year. and my cousin was as annoying as hell and wherever i went to get away from him he followed. Then my grandfather came. the one i never see never really know, dont even really consider him ( Read more... )

my cat is a fat ass bitch so i am chosing to ignore her for the rest of the day

yesterday was an alright day my leg was bothering me like hell in the morning, so i had the usual radiation then i had my first day of physical therapy, towards the end the therapist pushed down on the front of my rihgt kneee and i cried and jumped in pain. She thinks that there is a very good chance that i have tendonitis, which could expalin the ( Read more... )

Im so sick of being bored lonley and depressed, pretty much no one bothers to call me to see if i want to do anything and i dont call them becasue i would feel like a pest because they have a life that consists of school and a job and i dont

So this day isnt a very happy one for me, although stef helped keep my mind off things on our jaunt to brighton. Today is the lovely one year anniversary of when i was told that i had cancer. I had that damn surugry done on my eye, going in they kept thinking that it was a benign tumor. and then i wake up from anestshia and the doctor comes over ( Read more... )