I should be in bed right now.
Man oh man..I am loosing track of the days..or really just what day it is.. I am surprised that it is already the 14. Plus school starting on Thursday threw me off. I keep thinking its Monday tomorrow or something. *dizzy*
Sooo~~~ about my week or past few days or whatever…So I got the first week of class over and done with and this quarter is going to be super fun but really freaking hard. -___- I hope Juan can get a job soon so I can really cut back on my hours at work. I want to devote as much time as my brain can handle to school. I can really tell that this school and major is definitely for me. Every class I get out of I am thinking “Man, this is going to be so much fun” or “Oh I have always wanted to learn this stuff..” It makes me really happy. Well, I could due without Effective Speaking, but eh, whatever.
On Monday I had Textile Science and Fashion Sketching II. I LOVE textile so far!! Yes, I am scared to death though because really it is a science class and I am not good at that. Buuut, I have always wanted to truly learn more about fabrics because every good designer should. Plus it REALLY helps in cosplay. XDD Plus my teacher is really cool. She makes everything fashion and industry forward and really tailors the class to benefit us as fashion design majors.
Then I had fashion sketching II…same teacher, new class. ..and scarier. I have never really drawn before so using markers is really scaring the crap out of me. I mean, she showed us with a freaking long ass demo, but there is just so much info and it really is just practicing it. I am actually SO happy that we are out next Monday for MLK Day, even if it shortens the classes…I would be freaking out if the homework was due Monday. I am just practicing like crazy with the markers and trying to get used to them. They are hard. I looked some tutorials and stuff up on deviant art and I feel more inspired and better prepared to face my markers. XD Lets hope I can get better <3
Last night I had some weirrrrrrd dreams. I think it has to do with my new friends…Yes! I have friends!! And we actually talk and socialize!!! AND they got me on LJ! XDDD So they are some awesome lolitas that go to FIDM with me and we actually have a class together. So we decided to meet up Monday night and hang out. They live in Little Tokyo so Juan got his boba and I got to hang out with awesome people. XDDD So back to my dreams..I had many of them last night. All I really remember is drawing and coloring with markers…drawing Lolita designs..dressing in Lolita…reading Lolita bibles..walking in downtown with Juan and getting lost. It was weird. O____o
Since Lolita has even entered my dreams, I think its obvious what I have been thinking about lately. It’s actually kinda weird, really. My whole idea and philosophy on Lolita has changed since I met lethalbanana and fukai. I realized that what I thought about Lolita was totally wrong. XDD I used to preach that Lolita was not just a costume and that it was a lifestyle and blahblahblah…but I would never wear it or whatever..I guess because I am always broke or spending it on cosplay. And even if I did get the stuff I would probably only wear it to meet ups or to cons. But Paige and Molly wear it to school and all that. So now after thinking about it, I think of it as more of just a style…like how punk or gothic is. Soooo, in conclusion I have decided that I want to start saving up for my first Lolita dress..or something. XD I’m going to start looking around for that one dream dress to get me started and go from there…
Speaking of style and all that, this brings me to another issue about my clothes and all that. It sounds silly but I feel like I have changed..and not in a good way. Back home I used to wear whatever the hell I wanted because one I lived in a small ass town and two: who cared? It wasn’t like anyone was on top of all the trends or whatever..I didn’t care. Plus everyone was used to me and I had all my close friends there..so I didn’t care. I wore what I felt like wearing because it was cute or something. But now ever since I moved to LA and been going to FIDM, I feel this really odd and weird pressure to always look good and ‘in’…I kinda hate it honestly..and I am probably not making much sense. My point is, I want to be able to dress the way I want and not have anyone stare at me. I thought that if I didn’t dress cool enough or whatever, the people I want to be friends with wouldn’t approach me. I dunno o___o This is actually a really touchy topic with me for some reason …. I have no idea.. So I hope one day when I have my awesome Lolita clothes that I can wear it outside of meetups and cons like Paige and Molly. I look up to them for having so much confidence and whatever else the word is that they can go to school in full Lolita and not care (or at least I think they don’t care lol)
Ok..no more whining from Ashli. I think this is just a big cry for me to just go shopping and gain some more confidence in what I wear. Man I am just a big loser. Ahahahaha, Im glad I have like three other people that read this. Lolololol…
But other than me being an emo fashion child, I GET MY NEW BOOTS TOMMOORRROOWW~~~!!! I found a picture of them online:::
These boots make me REALLY love working at Bloomingdales. I got them for $50!!! They were originally $180 and if I was just a regular person, I would have got them for $90 or so. Buuut, since I work at Bloomies, I got an extra 20%+20%+15%!!! Whheee. I have been needing a pair of boots since the dawn of time. And the best part about them is that I can use them for work too!!! My crappy Forever 21 ballet flats already have holes in them and are flattening my feet. 0____o
So I was going to get this pair:
They would have been $40...but I felt I looked to manly in them…for work that is. I would have got them if I didn’t have to save so much for rent. Juan not having a job kinda sucks.
And then we have a lot of this shoe still left at Bloomies. I don’t really like them though. :/
Too high and big of a heel(((I mean, for work that is...and I would be a friggen skyscraper..))…I think I want something that looks kinda loose and laid back or something.
Annnnnnnd, the other awesome thing about having Lolita friends is this:
YEAH!! They distract me very often. I really really love them. But I have to admit, when I heard that the G&L Bibles were coming out in English I just thought “eeeee..I dunno” since I am a stupid wanna be elite authentic person. They are actually really nice to have and they have hair and makeup sectionnnnnssss!!~~ Fun times for Ashli.
Ok, I need to go to bed. Enjoy the long post of me being stupid…I am kinda getting better at posting. ^^;;;;;;;;;
Notenotenote::: I didnt mean to captilize lolita every time..I wrote this in Word so just in case if IE died it would still be there...and word likes to captilize lolita...weeiirrd..
edit: Juan just asked when is this due. He thought since this was so long that it was a paper or something. This really proves that I write wayyyyy too much. >_<