tonight i found, that i am, just that disposable..

i don't know how he's going to pull it off, but he's gonna get rid of me. at least i can see the signs and be prepared before it happens.

i feel like a black hole tonight.

So, i went out to lunch with Brian today, and then he asked if i wanted to stay the rest of his shift and i had no other plans so i did. on the 6:10 out of chicago, almost to wheaton, the engineere dumped the air, meaning every one on the train heard this big woosh, and the train came to a stop. the first thing out of brian's mouth was.. i hope ( Read more... )

Katie!!!   that handwritten thing  (i never know what they're called).   kinda cool.. i may do that.

Dameron where are you?!

then small update

The Brian thing has gotten.. odd.     worse yet a little better.   in other news not a whole lot of change.  the deli is closing unless some thing happens in the next couple of weeks.  new job search went ( Read more... )

i have this terrible feeling in my stomach... it just occured when Brian just called me, it's saturday, i don't talk to brian on saturdays. He says, 'hi, i'm on my front porch with megan and family, and she would like me to tell you to please be respectful and not call or text her husband any more' and i say confused 'ok' and then we say bye.. ( Read more... )

Wednesday night SAY ANYTHING CONCERT

YES!

my life is rediculous ( Read more... )

Love is Blind, Deaf, and Dumb; beacuse it doesn't look before it chooses, it won't listen to anything you say, it will always pursue it's corse no matter how fruitless it becomes. and it is so stubborn that we have to overcome ourselves to really see the beauty of it.

i'm addicted to this song, Berlin by Black Reble Motorcycle Club. i mean.. it's one of those songs that the lyrics just... rip out part of your soul but you can't stop listening to it ( Read more... )

strange.

can't sleep.

And to say i don't know where to start, isn't even the beginning.

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